So i have been super busy with my life lately that i couldnt even blog a bit. Right now i should be doing my ASL homework, but that can wait. I had my lab exam today for Anat 314....it was average....and now after asl class ima study my life away with stats and rels.....got a rels quiz tomorrow and stats test after. After all those things my week will be glorious. I will have nothing but hw to do....no studying. (i probably will study, just not too much.)
Lately on weekends I have been going out to parties and having a good ole time. I mean this year is so different then last yr. I was the DD last year...(the little goodie goodie)...didnt want to get my feet dirty sort of thing. This year I am having a blast and enjoying everyday.....since I wont be here much longer....:( Ill be leaving for the Marshfield site for the nursing program this next semester. I am gonna miss so many of my friends.
On the subject of friends, this year i have noticed that our large friend group has split up into at least two groups....and i really dont like it. The one friend that i was close to last sem. does even act the same around me anymore. Its all different. she is with other ppl, which is fine, but I just dont understand how she can act weird around me.......what did i do to deserve this? The ones i still hang out with have noticed the same thing too. So we just decided instead of getting into fights and such....to just ignore her.....or just stay away. Its the nicer way of solving things. idk im sick of drama....i had to deal with enough drama from HS. Im done with that crap.
I guess all i can say is....ill miss the friends that i talk to and miss me back....and i will for sure come visit them!!!!! :D
i would love to talk about how stats is the worst class in the world, but i dont want to waste my breath on it....lol.
i could also rant about guy stuff, but i did enough of that to my friends here and mariah....lol i no one thing.......that my problem is i like guys that dont like me....and guys that like me i dont like them in that way...so either way im screwed....lol...but thats life...u deal.
I think the last thing that i complained about with guys was that i had tons of guyfriends that i liked only as guyfriends.....but most of them turned over to wanting more....then it was my duty to tell them i couldnt see them in that way....as a result of all this crap...i really dont have many guyfriends anymore...:( which i am very upset about.
all i want is for this semester to be over so i can start in with classes that matter and start a new somewheres else....although i will miss so many ppl here.
K
Monday, November 9, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
soooo long ago...
MAN.....
It has been since god knows when since the last time i was on here. I really did miss it. School and other things have been taking over my life like nuts....already stressing out! yuck. I cant believe that this is the last semester here in EC. Im already missing it. ha. My life has been pretty interesting since the last time i wrote....
I have gone to 2 weddings the past 2 weeks. I LOVE weddings...especially when u have a date that gets u drinks and wants to dance with u. Which i love to do. Its just so much fun! I actually took my grandpa as my date for the last wedding, but left later with my friend. This friend of mine is just hard to explain. I like and i dont like him......y is everything so damn difficult?? I just need to take things day by day. and not worry so much....
Homecoming weekend is coming soon!!! looking forward to a good time. Not looking forward to wat happened to me last time i partied......dont want that to ever happen ever again. disgusting!!
Right now im in bed and thinking about my classes and thinking about how i need to be up in under 8 hours.....for RELS class....which is boring anyways.
I really am in the anti boy thing right now......i have way too much trouble with guys. which sucks.......
So ima go look for a cute dress for the wedding coming up on the 24th. I need to look good! haha
i need sleep. talk later
K
It has been since god knows when since the last time i was on here. I really did miss it. School and other things have been taking over my life like nuts....already stressing out! yuck. I cant believe that this is the last semester here in EC. Im already missing it. ha. My life has been pretty interesting since the last time i wrote....
I have gone to 2 weddings the past 2 weeks. I LOVE weddings...especially when u have a date that gets u drinks and wants to dance with u. Which i love to do. Its just so much fun! I actually took my grandpa as my date for the last wedding, but left later with my friend. This friend of mine is just hard to explain. I like and i dont like him......y is everything so damn difficult?? I just need to take things day by day. and not worry so much....
Homecoming weekend is coming soon!!! looking forward to a good time. Not looking forward to wat happened to me last time i partied......dont want that to ever happen ever again. disgusting!!
Right now im in bed and thinking about my classes and thinking about how i need to be up in under 8 hours.....for RELS class....which is boring anyways.
I really am in the anti boy thing right now......i have way too much trouble with guys. which sucks.......
So ima go look for a cute dress for the wedding coming up on the 24th. I need to look good! haha
i need sleep. talk later
K
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Feeling the way i should feel
Right now....
I seriously have realized so much in one summer. I truly am extremely happy with the way my life is right at this moment. Mariah and I had a HUGE conversation about relationship stuff on the way home tonight from brits aunts house. We really have deep conversations about the most random things. I think the one thing that made me think about my life was a special little text from a special someone that had a few a couple nights ago. It read, "I love my life, don't you love yours?" I of course laughed at first, but then quickly realized that it wasn't that funny. It was such a deep question. I really thought about that for the longest time. Now that I have thought it through, I realize that my life is going on a great path right now. My schooling is going the exact path I wanted it to go down, I love my family and being with them, I have a flippin job, which I am greatful for, and I'm happily single for the moment.lol I'm just waiting for right one to come knocking on my door one of these days. I just don't want to mess up with getting into another bad relationship again. I am changing my ways....and is taking it all slow....the way it should be done. Getting to know the guy before you get into any relationship mumbo gumbo...
Tomorrow is going to be a FULL day of work at the farm. We start chopping early because of the rainy day we had and the rainy days to come...:( But I don't mind if I'm on a john deere the whole day. I would rather drive a tractor, then a handful of other things.
I also have a ton of things I would like to get done, calling for certain appt like my tattoo checkup to see if it needs any touchups, spending time with my bro and sis before school, and my mom/daughter time together. I also still need to pack up all my EC things. Even though I'm only staying for a semester.....I still have tons of things to bring.
I seriously can't believe that my Stats professor is already sending out emails....yuck not looking forward to homework and tests....but excited to see my friends and have a good time!!!
K
I seriously have realized so much in one summer. I truly am extremely happy with the way my life is right at this moment. Mariah and I had a HUGE conversation about relationship stuff on the way home tonight from brits aunts house. We really have deep conversations about the most random things. I think the one thing that made me think about my life was a special little text from a special someone that had a few a couple nights ago. It read, "I love my life, don't you love yours?" I of course laughed at first, but then quickly realized that it wasn't that funny. It was such a deep question. I really thought about that for the longest time. Now that I have thought it through, I realize that my life is going on a great path right now. My schooling is going the exact path I wanted it to go down, I love my family and being with them, I have a flippin job, which I am greatful for, and I'm happily single for the moment.lol I'm just waiting for right one to come knocking on my door one of these days. I just don't want to mess up with getting into another bad relationship again. I am changing my ways....and is taking it all slow....the way it should be done. Getting to know the guy before you get into any relationship mumbo gumbo...
Tomorrow is going to be a FULL day of work at the farm. We start chopping early because of the rainy day we had and the rainy days to come...:( But I don't mind if I'm on a john deere the whole day. I would rather drive a tractor, then a handful of other things.
I also have a ton of things I would like to get done, calling for certain appt like my tattoo checkup to see if it needs any touchups, spending time with my bro and sis before school, and my mom/daughter time together. I also still need to pack up all my EC things. Even though I'm only staying for a semester.....I still have tons of things to bring.
I seriously can't believe that my Stats professor is already sending out emails....yuck not looking forward to homework and tests....but excited to see my friends and have a good time!!!
K
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
yeah yeah yeah
so anywho...
im just so happy/sad/baffled/determined.....with my life right now. Seriously, I really am just straight out boggled. My life these days has been a complete 360 from the past 4 yrs of my life. I really am enjoying my life a whole lot more now then before. I appreciate more things in life, and finally get to worry about myself and myself only for once. the one thing that is for sure a positive in my life right now is that im meeting SO many new ppl. I truely enjoy that.
today: Worked at the farm about the whole day. Got done and as i was driving up my driveway....something hits my right side of my car hard. i thought that is was a rabbit, but it was my dog copper. I was so scared that he for sure was a goner....but he shook it off like it was no big deal. haha and i had no dents on my car!! so I was so happy!
My mom, sis and I went to mtown to get something to eat and to get groceries. We needed them badly. As we were coming home....a raccoon came running out and we hit it. I'm pretty sure that it was a goner. I was pretty sad about it. but my night turned alot better after my lovely conversation with a person I really wanted to talk to. HAHA well lets just say that I got the butterflies in my stomach from it. :) But i cant get too happy just in case nothing works out. so keep the fingers crossed and knock on wood!
Mariah, Evan, and I watched I Love You Man.....boy that sure was funny!!!! i sure liked it!!! til another night! gnite!
K
im just so happy/sad/baffled/determined.....with my life right now. Seriously, I really am just straight out boggled. My life these days has been a complete 360 from the past 4 yrs of my life. I really am enjoying my life a whole lot more now then before. I appreciate more things in life, and finally get to worry about myself and myself only for once. the one thing that is for sure a positive in my life right now is that im meeting SO many new ppl. I truely enjoy that.
today: Worked at the farm about the whole day. Got done and as i was driving up my driveway....something hits my right side of my car hard. i thought that is was a rabbit, but it was my dog copper. I was so scared that he for sure was a goner....but he shook it off like it was no big deal. haha and i had no dents on my car!! so I was so happy!
My mom, sis and I went to mtown to get something to eat and to get groceries. We needed them badly. As we were coming home....a raccoon came running out and we hit it. I'm pretty sure that it was a goner. I was pretty sad about it. but my night turned alot better after my lovely conversation with a person I really wanted to talk to. HAHA well lets just say that I got the butterflies in my stomach from it. :) But i cant get too happy just in case nothing works out. so keep the fingers crossed and knock on wood!
Mariah, Evan, and I watched I Love You Man.....boy that sure was funny!!!! i sure liked it!!! til another night! gnite!
K
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
been busy
well for starters...
im too tired to capitalize my words and do correct punctuationss...but anywho. i have been very busy with life....keeping up with friends, work, school stuff for nursing, and many other crazy things that go on in my life. these days i really dont like goin on fb....because once ur on ur on for good....and its a complete waste of time most of the time. I have sooooooo many things that i could do for the weekend....there are way too many plans for me to figure out which one i do or not. i should just make a list of thinks that i would like to do for fun and the things that i need to do for like chores and such. i already heard that we will be mowing tomorrow and that there is a possiblilty that we might as a family go to lake wazee which is where i was today. I know for next time that i will have to bring some goggles and some more scuba gear. boy that water can look pretty eerie when all murky..... i would say more but im falling asleep!!!
K
im too tired to capitalize my words and do correct punctuationss...but anywho. i have been very busy with life....keeping up with friends, work, school stuff for nursing, and many other crazy things that go on in my life. these days i really dont like goin on fb....because once ur on ur on for good....and its a complete waste of time most of the time. I have sooooooo many things that i could do for the weekend....there are way too many plans for me to figure out which one i do or not. i should just make a list of thinks that i would like to do for fun and the things that i need to do for like chores and such. i already heard that we will be mowing tomorrow and that there is a possiblilty that we might as a family go to lake wazee which is where i was today. I know for next time that i will have to bring some goggles and some more scuba gear. boy that water can look pretty eerie when all murky..... i would say more but im falling asleep!!!
K
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Sundays suck...:(
IM JUST FUCKING PISSED!!!!!
First off I have been trying (hence the word trying) to start and date and such....yeah yeah...blah blah. I went on this date..with a guy that I thought at first would be just another guy I would go on a date with and it would be boring. He was different. I really enjoyed his company and all that. So I really wanted to get to know him more. He pretty much was the nicest guy I have ever met. Seriously, he was a genuine guy that treated me like a princess. A week had gone by of seeing each other like every night and everything was great. I mean I hadn't been treated like a princess by a guy in what? FOREVER!!! I pretty much had to go through the shittiest relationship to figure out what is good in life...and then what do I go and do....I say I can't do this. I fuck everything that is good up...because why...well I can't handle someone telling me constantly that I'm beautiful and that I'm gorgous....and say sorry constantly for the littlest things. Because I'm not used to that...and that I'm FUCKED UP!! I'm just so angry right now about everything. How can someone so close to u at one point go and hurt you when you do everything in your power to make them happy. I guess when he hurt me....he totally fucked me up..seriously. I may look like it doesn't affect me...I put a good front that's for sure. But its there in me that I know the way I truely feel.
Tonight was the Vesper Firemens picnic. I was there, met up with some friends, talked with ppl i knew, and saw the nice guy there also. It was so hard to be there and see him...plus I know that he was getting wasted. He made everything uncomfortable...and I still want to be friends. Him and his friend were way gone....almost got into a fight...he may have gotten hurt and wanted to drive home. Luckily he had a good friend that would drive to two of them home. I was worried.
A part of me thinks that I have fucked it up breaking things off with him and the other part tells me that I'm not ready to be in anything serious right now. I truely don't know what the fuck I want. I just can't be happy, and that's just sad.
K
First off I have been trying (hence the word trying) to start and date and such....yeah yeah...blah blah. I went on this date..with a guy that I thought at first would be just another guy I would go on a date with and it would be boring. He was different. I really enjoyed his company and all that. So I really wanted to get to know him more. He pretty much was the nicest guy I have ever met. Seriously, he was a genuine guy that treated me like a princess. A week had gone by of seeing each other like every night and everything was great. I mean I hadn't been treated like a princess by a guy in what? FOREVER!!! I pretty much had to go through the shittiest relationship to figure out what is good in life...and then what do I go and do....I say I can't do this. I fuck everything that is good up...because why...well I can't handle someone telling me constantly that I'm beautiful and that I'm gorgous....and say sorry constantly for the littlest things. Because I'm not used to that...and that I'm FUCKED UP!! I'm just so angry right now about everything. How can someone so close to u at one point go and hurt you when you do everything in your power to make them happy. I guess when he hurt me....he totally fucked me up..seriously. I may look like it doesn't affect me...I put a good front that's for sure. But its there in me that I know the way I truely feel.
Tonight was the Vesper Firemens picnic. I was there, met up with some friends, talked with ppl i knew, and saw the nice guy there also. It was so hard to be there and see him...plus I know that he was getting wasted. He made everything uncomfortable...and I still want to be friends. Him and his friend were way gone....almost got into a fight...he may have gotten hurt and wanted to drive home. Luckily he had a good friend that would drive to two of them home. I was worried.
A part of me thinks that I have fucked it up breaking things off with him and the other part tells me that I'm not ready to be in anything serious right now. I truely don't know what the fuck I want. I just can't be happy, and that's just sad.
K
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Tattoo time and much more...
First off...
I would like to say that I love my tattoo. It is everything I thought it would be and more. The only bad thing is is that it hurt like a son of a nutcracker when I got it done. It took over 3 hrs to get the finished product. Lets just say it hurt so bad, and now it itches like a friggin skeeder bite and is startin to peel. The greatest thing also was that my mom was waiting for her first tattoo after mine was finished. We seriously were at the parlor for a good 9 hours. YUCK!
This tat doesnt make things easy to do either. Farming is a choir with a tattooed foot. The artists said that I shouldnt where anything on my foot for a good week or so. But its hard not to with me working on a farm. 2nd crop starts tomorrow by the way.
The fourth of july was an ok day. Went to heathers for food. Then found the zawislan family, whom are all wonderful people, and played a little bingo. Of course i didnt win. But I did make plans to go kayakin with Ben, Angel, and Jeremy. What do they do? they ditch at the last minute....it sure felt like a set up....But I cant complain at all....kayaking and the great company was a blast. Now that really made me want a kayak my self.
I also had a date Mon. I'm not goin into any details. It was a dinner and a movie...Public Enemies....real good by the way. I havent been on a real date in forever. But im still not sure if Im fully ready for dating yet........hummmmm that sure takes some time to think thats for sure.
Like I said 2nd crop is on this week...so pretty much good night!!!
K
I would like to say that I love my tattoo. It is everything I thought it would be and more. The only bad thing is is that it hurt like a son of a nutcracker when I got it done. It took over 3 hrs to get the finished product. Lets just say it hurt so bad, and now it itches like a friggin skeeder bite and is startin to peel. The greatest thing also was that my mom was waiting for her first tattoo after mine was finished. We seriously were at the parlor for a good 9 hours. YUCK!
This tat doesnt make things easy to do either. Farming is a choir with a tattooed foot. The artists said that I shouldnt where anything on my foot for a good week or so. But its hard not to with me working on a farm. 2nd crop starts tomorrow by the way.
The fourth of july was an ok day. Went to heathers for food. Then found the zawislan family, whom are all wonderful people, and played a little bingo. Of course i didnt win. But I did make plans to go kayakin with Ben, Angel, and Jeremy. What do they do? they ditch at the last minute....it sure felt like a set up....But I cant complain at all....kayaking and the great company was a blast. Now that really made me want a kayak my self.
I also had a date Mon. I'm not goin into any details. It was a dinner and a movie...Public Enemies....real good by the way. I havent been on a real date in forever. But im still not sure if Im fully ready for dating yet........hummmmm that sure takes some time to think thats for sure.
Like I said 2nd crop is on this week...so pretty much good night!!!
K
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
blog it up
So anywho...
Im back from a long weekendish time at Countryfest...which was funski. I met montgomery gentry and the whole 9 yards. Took tons of pics and dressed crazy for every show. Which wasnt that crazy since every girl that was there pretty much wore the same too..big or small..lol. the thing that really got me was all the ppl that were dying when i was gone...nothing ever happens when im home, but as soon as im gone....Farrah Fawcett, the King of Pop, and Billy Mayes all die.....they will be sadly missed by all. Oxyclean, the old Charlies Angels, and Thriller will never be the same again....
All I'm thinking about right now is my grandma...its her birthday tomorrow so we are all goin to her mass dedicated to her in the morning. I really miss her and I think about her at the most random times.. It has been 2 months since she passed away...and it still feels like yesterday. I just looked at the clock...just now...so Happy bday gma....i miss u and love u! She would be 88 years old today. wow how time flies....
There is another person that is on my mind too, but I dont want to bring the name up. I really dont know who reads this and little do i know if that person will read this in the future...so its best kept to myself. I am so confused about this person too. They dont give answers when u ask questions. I think its to make me go crazy, which seems to be working.
I'm excited to get my tat done on thurs...with my mom and maybe my aunt betty. So I cant wait...other then that I need to send in a payment on a parking ticket from school which is rediculous and I have to send in all my nursing papers tom...so im all done with that. So much to do in so little time to do it.
Time to hit the hay...
K
Im back from a long weekendish time at Countryfest...which was funski. I met montgomery gentry and the whole 9 yards. Took tons of pics and dressed crazy for every show. Which wasnt that crazy since every girl that was there pretty much wore the same too..big or small..lol. the thing that really got me was all the ppl that were dying when i was gone...nothing ever happens when im home, but as soon as im gone....Farrah Fawcett, the King of Pop, and Billy Mayes all die.....they will be sadly missed by all. Oxyclean, the old Charlies Angels, and Thriller will never be the same again....
All I'm thinking about right now is my grandma...its her birthday tomorrow so we are all goin to her mass dedicated to her in the morning. I really miss her and I think about her at the most random times.. It has been 2 months since she passed away...and it still feels like yesterday. I just looked at the clock...just now...so Happy bday gma....i miss u and love u! She would be 88 years old today. wow how time flies....
There is another person that is on my mind too, but I dont want to bring the name up. I really dont know who reads this and little do i know if that person will read this in the future...so its best kept to myself. I am so confused about this person too. They dont give answers when u ask questions. I think its to make me go crazy, which seems to be working.
I'm excited to get my tat done on thurs...with my mom and maybe my aunt betty. So I cant wait...other then that I need to send in a payment on a parking ticket from school which is rediculous and I have to send in all my nursing papers tom...so im all done with that. So much to do in so little time to do it.
Time to hit the hay...
K
Sunday, June 21, 2009
HAVING THE BEST WEEKEND EVER!!
So first off...
Friday was full of working at the farm and milking. Yeah, but the good thing was that I started early to get done early because I made plans with Mariah and Team Jordan (Jordan Weiler and Jordan Freund) to go to Applebees and to the movie Year One. The movie sucked a hard one. It really was bad. Be we all seemed to have a good time. After the movie we decided to head to Auburndale and hit up Shabangers. It was fun until we had to leave. We ended up coming back to my house and "tried" to work my TV in my basement....didn 't figure it out. haha.
Saturday I got up and hand washed my car and my mom's car. I also went to the softball tourney that was going on this whole weekend. It was such a nice day out. I even got a nice little sunburn on my right foot and my back. I got back from the games and I saw the letter that I have been waiting for for the longest time. And it was there, lying on the countertop. Nobody was home, so I took it and I contemplated if I wanted to open it at the table. I finally decided to open it. There were a couple of papers in the envelope, so I was hoping that that was a good thing. I opened the papers halfway, and I saw the word CONGRADULATIONS!!! What did I do??? I bawled...like a little baby. I was so happy. I ran around the house screaming all by myself, since everybody was at church at the time. I sent out a huge group text to almost everyone on my phone about it. I called Mariah first, then my cuz Tiff. I waited patiently until church was over to call my family. I seriously was on cloud 9. I went over to Heather's house, went with her, JJ,Sojka, and Terry to the Drive-In. After that Heather and I and her dad went to the Vogel's grad party. We left after an hour. That is when I went over to Mariah's house where Mike F., Me and Mariah watched a movie. I got a call at 12:30 from Heather saying we should come out to Vogel's again. We went there and I only wanted to stay for an hour or so....but I was there until 3. What an interesting night. lol
Sunday: I'm tired, but I did go to church....and now I'm laying around. I also went to the tourney today.
Friday was full of working at the farm and milking. Yeah, but the good thing was that I started early to get done early because I made plans with Mariah and Team Jordan (Jordan Weiler and Jordan Freund) to go to Applebees and to the movie Year One. The movie sucked a hard one. It really was bad. Be we all seemed to have a good time. After the movie we decided to head to Auburndale and hit up Shabangers. It was fun until we had to leave. We ended up coming back to my house and "tried" to work my TV in my basement....didn 't figure it out. haha.
Saturday I got up and hand washed my car and my mom's car. I also went to the softball tourney that was going on this whole weekend. It was such a nice day out. I even got a nice little sunburn on my right foot and my back. I got back from the games and I saw the letter that I have been waiting for for the longest time. And it was there, lying on the countertop. Nobody was home, so I took it and I contemplated if I wanted to open it at the table. I finally decided to open it. There were a couple of papers in the envelope, so I was hoping that that was a good thing. I opened the papers halfway, and I saw the word CONGRADULATIONS!!! What did I do??? I bawled...like a little baby. I was so happy. I ran around the house screaming all by myself, since everybody was at church at the time. I sent out a huge group text to almost everyone on my phone about it. I called Mariah first, then my cuz Tiff. I waited patiently until church was over to call my family. I seriously was on cloud 9. I went over to Heather's house, went with her, JJ,Sojka, and Terry to the Drive-In. After that Heather and I and her dad went to the Vogel's grad party. We left after an hour. That is when I went over to Mariah's house where Mike F., Me and Mariah watched a movie. I got a call at 12:30 from Heather saying we should come out to Vogel's again. We went there and I only wanted to stay for an hour or so....but I was there until 3. What an interesting night. lol
Sunday: I'm tired, but I did go to church....and now I'm laying around. I also went to the tourney today.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
A boring Day off...
Well for starters....
Today was so boring...I thought maybe that my day off would be interesting, but really it was nothing. I really wanted to go to eat with Dana...but the turd had to work. jeepers. lol. So I sat around the house until we all went to Rapids (a shit hole of emptiness) and went to walmart. I got some new makeup and went home. Wow interesting huh?! lol Then tonight was the car cruise from Auburndale to Nekossa. I got to drive the 73' Dodge Challenger. Yeah and I love that car. We all stopped at a bar...got some drinks, bullshitted for a while, and then went home.
Later on tonight I realized that I couldn't find my nice sunglasses. I have no idea where they would be. I searched everywhere. I am so frustrated right now....why couldn't I have lost my $5 pair instead of my $140 pair. ARGGG!!!! I really do think that someone stole them. They are always in my purse or my car...and they aren't. I'm pretty irrate about all this.
Nothing else really was interesting since the last time I wrote. I went to plenty of soft/baseball games. I went to see the Hangover...which was great. And I have been working.. I did however have a nice long convo with Cody F. last night about how crazy my life is right now and how f***ed up I am....and I think I am that way because of my last relationship...it seriously made me go crazy....I'm like all stressed, upset, frustrated, bitter, and every other word u could think of. He really does help me when I discuss all my problems with him. I really do enjoy talking to him. Not many like to listen to me. lol
I'm done for the night and if anyone reads this my sunglasses where white Ray Ban's old style.
Today was so boring...I thought maybe that my day off would be interesting, but really it was nothing. I really wanted to go to eat with Dana...but the turd had to work. jeepers. lol. So I sat around the house until we all went to Rapids (a shit hole of emptiness) and went to walmart. I got some new makeup and went home. Wow interesting huh?! lol Then tonight was the car cruise from Auburndale to Nekossa. I got to drive the 73' Dodge Challenger. Yeah and I love that car. We all stopped at a bar...got some drinks, bullshitted for a while, and then went home.
Later on tonight I realized that I couldn't find my nice sunglasses. I have no idea where they would be. I searched everywhere. I am so frustrated right now....why couldn't I have lost my $5 pair instead of my $140 pair. ARGGG!!!! I really do think that someone stole them. They are always in my purse or my car...and they aren't. I'm pretty irrate about all this.
Nothing else really was interesting since the last time I wrote. I went to plenty of soft/baseball games. I went to see the Hangover...which was great. And I have been working.. I did however have a nice long convo with Cody F. last night about how crazy my life is right now and how f***ed up I am....and I think I am that way because of my last relationship...it seriously made me go crazy....I'm like all stressed, upset, frustrated, bitter, and every other word u could think of. He really does help me when I discuss all my problems with him. I really do enjoy talking to him. Not many like to listen to me. lol
I'm done for the night and if anyone reads this my sunglasses where white Ray Ban's old style.
Monday, June 15, 2009
good times
So...
I guess I haven't written much in a while, but all I can say is that I am happy with it. I guess if I don't find time to write on here that just means that I'm keeping busy, which I like. Last week I went to alot of softball/baseball games for my bro and sis. That really does keep me busy. I'm still trying to stay on schedule for lifting....trying to I guess. I do go for power walks with my mom pretty much every night, so at least I'm doing something. I usually go on here late at night because that is about the only time I have to write and do things on my computer, otherwise I'm either working or somewhere else.
Friday was actually really fun. Tiff and Jake were having a game night and had a couple ppl over. I had everyone play the game What If....which was a blast. But soon the night came to an end and Saturday came running around the corner. I had to push mow in the morning, which never is fun, but I got it done. I actually forgot to say that I had gotten into a heated argument with Mariah (my bf), and I for sure thought that we were going to stay mad at each other for a while....but the next day she called crying and I knew exactly what it was about. I had to call her back as soon as possible. I know how that feels when you really want to talk to someone and they don't answer. I hate it. So the next day we were back to normen...lol. I decided to go to a Neillsville grad party that Cody F. and Katie S. invited me to. I took Mariah with me so I wasn't by myself. We had a BLAST. Dancing and walking around and having no one know you....is seriously great! By 11 we decided to leave which we should have stayed, but Freund was having a party too, so we went there next. I had a good time talking to jordan, but I think Mariah had a hard time with Jake being there. I won't get into the situation, but pretty much Jake is an ass. Enough said. Sunday came and I went to church at the hospital. I haven't been there since my grandma was there. It actually made me tear up when sitting there thinking about her. I miss her so much! Later on my fam, mariah and I went to play tennis and walk around town. It was so hot out...yuck! We got back to my house and started watching the marathon for ANTM. I love that show. Today was a short day. I got up early to go to the church mass dedicated to my grandma. Then I lifted weights and went to town with my mom and sis where we got nothing done. Got back just in time to go feed and milk. Later on Mariah went to my sis's game with me then to the co-ed softball games....The night was finished off with the movie Grand Torino. It was so good. I cryed so much....but enough with that...I'm tired and need to sleep...talk more tomorrow!
K
I guess I haven't written much in a while, but all I can say is that I am happy with it. I guess if I don't find time to write on here that just means that I'm keeping busy, which I like. Last week I went to alot of softball/baseball games for my bro and sis. That really does keep me busy. I'm still trying to stay on schedule for lifting....trying to I guess. I do go for power walks with my mom pretty much every night, so at least I'm doing something. I usually go on here late at night because that is about the only time I have to write and do things on my computer, otherwise I'm either working or somewhere else.
Friday was actually really fun. Tiff and Jake were having a game night and had a couple ppl over. I had everyone play the game What If....which was a blast. But soon the night came to an end and Saturday came running around the corner. I had to push mow in the morning, which never is fun, but I got it done. I actually forgot to say that I had gotten into a heated argument with Mariah (my bf), and I for sure thought that we were going to stay mad at each other for a while....but the next day she called crying and I knew exactly what it was about. I had to call her back as soon as possible. I know how that feels when you really want to talk to someone and they don't answer. I hate it. So the next day we were back to normen...lol. I decided to go to a Neillsville grad party that Cody F. and Katie S. invited me to. I took Mariah with me so I wasn't by myself. We had a BLAST. Dancing and walking around and having no one know you....is seriously great! By 11 we decided to leave which we should have stayed, but Freund was having a party too, so we went there next. I had a good time talking to jordan, but I think Mariah had a hard time with Jake being there. I won't get into the situation, but pretty much Jake is an ass. Enough said. Sunday came and I went to church at the hospital. I haven't been there since my grandma was there. It actually made me tear up when sitting there thinking about her. I miss her so much! Later on my fam, mariah and I went to play tennis and walk around town. It was so hot out...yuck! We got back to my house and started watching the marathon for ANTM. I love that show. Today was a short day. I got up early to go to the church mass dedicated to my grandma. Then I lifted weights and went to town with my mom and sis where we got nothing done. Got back just in time to go feed and milk. Later on Mariah went to my sis's game with me then to the co-ed softball games....The night was finished off with the movie Grand Torino. It was so good. I cryed so much....but enough with that...I'm tired and need to sleep...talk more tomorrow!
K
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wednesday wackiness
Well I'm just plain out tired....
I worked this morning, which sounded like it was going to be alot harder of a day then it actually was. We had to completely clean the calf barn from head to toe. It went great because I was busy cleaning all the feed buckets (which took a lifetime to clean all of them, so no grime was left behind).
Sunday was goin to be my fishing day. Instead the weather wanted to be difficult and start raining. A friend of mine ask if I wanted to come over to watch some movies. So I was pretty bored, so I drove 45 minutes practically (it feels that way very easily depended on the road. Lets just say that the night didn't go as planned and I became uncomfortable. I slept til 12 the next day and knew I had to work at 2 to go milk cows and feed calves. My week has been filled with work work work and work. Today I got done and combed all the nasty hairs out of both of my dogs. They needed it bad. I then went to my sis's softball game in port edwards...and now I'm tired laying here looking at a stupid screen......
I worked this morning, which sounded like it was going to be alot harder of a day then it actually was. We had to completely clean the calf barn from head to toe. It went great because I was busy cleaning all the feed buckets (which took a lifetime to clean all of them, so no grime was left behind).
Sunday was goin to be my fishing day. Instead the weather wanted to be difficult and start raining. A friend of mine ask if I wanted to come over to watch some movies. So I was pretty bored, so I drove 45 minutes practically (it feels that way very easily depended on the road. Lets just say that the night didn't go as planned and I became uncomfortable. I slept til 12 the next day and knew I had to work at 2 to go milk cows and feed calves. My week has been filled with work work work and work. Today I got done and combed all the nasty hairs out of both of my dogs. They needed it bad. I then went to my sis's softball game in port edwards...and now I'm tired laying here looking at a stupid screen......
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Not what I wanted for my weekend...:(
BLAH....
So anyways this weekend was not what I expected. I really don't know why I make plans because they always seem to never work out.
Here is my weekend I wanted:
-Saturday was to sleep in and wake up to get ready for Patrick's grad party and a wedding that I was invited to. Then after that I was going to go to a grad party over by Auburndale. And by the way I wanted the weather to be nice and sunny for the whole weekend...why does it have to be nice while I work on the farm and shit rain on me when I have off?? really??
-Sunday was to be strictly for fishing...and that is the whole shebang...
Now here is the weekend I got:
-Saturday I woke up late like I wanted, but it was raining. I texted my friend to see if the whole wedding thing was still on...but nope...(he had good reasons though...I give him that). I later didnt want to go to the grad party near auburndale, so I went to church with my sis and mom and went to eat at crabbys for some great ribs...YUM. I got home talked on my phone and I watched "He's just not that into you" since I bought it. I love/hate that movie....makes me really hate guys thats for sure.
-Sunday it will depend on if it is raining and such....but rite now I'm not sure...I might see the new movie "Up". That one looks so cute and funny...plenty of great movies out right now that I would love to see. I will also go to Pat's grad party because I just found out that it is on Sunday instead of Saturday...my bad. lol
I really didnt mind the weekend as much as how i sounded about it. It is just nice to relax and stuff, but fishing would be an added bonus....
* OH but I did find out that I can meet a performer at Countryfest. Anybody other then Taylor Swift...which isn't a huge deal to me....heck its free...so I'm quite excited for that!!!
So anyways this weekend was not what I expected. I really don't know why I make plans because they always seem to never work out.
Here is my weekend I wanted:
-Saturday was to sleep in and wake up to get ready for Patrick's grad party and a wedding that I was invited to. Then after that I was going to go to a grad party over by Auburndale. And by the way I wanted the weather to be nice and sunny for the whole weekend...why does it have to be nice while I work on the farm and shit rain on me when I have off?? really??
-Sunday was to be strictly for fishing...and that is the whole shebang...
Now here is the weekend I got:
-Saturday I woke up late like I wanted, but it was raining. I texted my friend to see if the whole wedding thing was still on...but nope...(he had good reasons though...I give him that). I later didnt want to go to the grad party near auburndale, so I went to church with my sis and mom and went to eat at crabbys for some great ribs...YUM. I got home talked on my phone and I watched "He's just not that into you" since I bought it. I love/hate that movie....makes me really hate guys thats for sure.
-Sunday it will depend on if it is raining and such....but rite now I'm not sure...I might see the new movie "Up". That one looks so cute and funny...plenty of great movies out right now that I would love to see. I will also go to Pat's grad party because I just found out that it is on Sunday instead of Saturday...my bad. lol
I really didnt mind the weekend as much as how i sounded about it. It is just nice to relax and stuff, but fishing would be an added bonus....
* OH but I did find out that I can meet a performer at Countryfest. Anybody other then Taylor Swift...which isn't a huge deal to me....heck its free...so I'm quite excited for that!!!
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Thrilling Thursdays (can you here the sarcasm??)
What my day consisted of:
:7:30 dentist appt. with a new dentist at Martin Dentistry. They were all very friendly and the bonus was that my dentist was extremely hot. That is a great add on. lol
:picked up stuff for my mom at wally world and pick n save. I also got lost trying to get to PNS. All the roads are closed, so that really pisses me off.
:11:00 started to haul for chopping.....took break at 5:30....ended at around 10:00. Now I think that is a long day, plus I got burnt....and now I have the craziest tan lines. :(
:Finally got home and took a lovely shower. YUM....it was great....
:Now I'm on here starting to get tired...so goodnight...will talk more later!
K
:7:30 dentist appt. with a new dentist at Martin Dentistry. They were all very friendly and the bonus was that my dentist was extremely hot. That is a great add on. lol
:picked up stuff for my mom at wally world and pick n save. I also got lost trying to get to PNS. All the roads are closed, so that really pisses me off.
:11:00 started to haul for chopping.....took break at 5:30....ended at around 10:00. Now I think that is a long day, plus I got burnt....and now I have the craziest tan lines. :(
:Finally got home and took a lovely shower. YUM....it was great....
:Now I'm on here starting to get tired...so goodnight...will talk more later!
K
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
Work and not much play..
SOOOO.....
I have been having such weird things happen to me lately. I just don't get all this. Is it like a sign or something? Besides all my messed up things in my life....it has been pretty good so far.
First off Friday, My friends were having a bonfire at 8. I knew that it was going to be fun, but I didn't know that I was going to get ganged up on about being single. I really felt uncomfortable about the whole situation. They kept on and on about how its a good thing for me. BLAH BLAH BLAH! I really have a whole different outlook on relationships then everyone else. They feel that you get tons of freedom ( and sure you do), BUT you don't have that one person there that you feel you can go to whenever and just to be with them, and to know that they love you. Sure they have found that person in their lives and now they get to talk to me about the single life. I know that one of them hasn't been single in a very long time...and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't like it either. Deffinatetly pick on me the single girl....thanks. Gosh I hate it. Plus it was awkward talking about this stuff in front of one of my friends of whom supposedly had a thing for me. Yeah awkward...
Well I guess I can't say that Saturday nite was any better. My friend is with her ex for the billionth time....and everytime that starts up again....who gets put on the backburner?? me. Yep when he wants something from her or just wants her around....she will drop everything in front of her to just go straight to him. Which is so true....so if she reads this.....she cannot say anything about what I wrote because it is all true. We were having a good time that night and all of a sudden she got a text saying he was coming over....and then all of a sudden she wanted to go home. What a coincedence.....this is not the first time this has happened to me.....nope....and you know what??? I should just leave this stuff all go and forget all that had happened....Why is it such a big deal to me??? BECAUSE.....I would NEVER do that to someone when I'm with them. But whatever...I shrug it all off all the time....because I think to myself....she just wants to be with the guy that calls her friend a "whore"....and I'm always there for her when she needs me because I'm a good friend like that. And I treat her good and we don't get into stupid fights like she does with her "manwhore" 24/7. I have said as such to her as I possibly could about how he is to her, but that goes in one ear and out the other. Ok, if you want to be fighting and miserable for the rest of your life with him, by all means you are on the right track. And you know what? I say this all because I care about her and her wellbeing. She needs to start thinking more about herself and less about a boy that is trying to control her life. Sorry I had to rant.
And then there was Sunday. I went to church. Then I did some tiling project for my mom....which was pretty fun I must say. I was outside the whole day...in a swimsuit....and I turned into a lobster....oh boy. It was so nice out tho I just couldn't help it. I also got a call from someone I didn't think would be calling me. He said that he just wanted to talk...and it was actually nice to hear his voice again. We made a plan to go this sunday fishing....I'm excited! I said I couldn't go Saturday because of Pat's grad party and my lovely rendevous with weiler to a wedding reception and a grad party after....lol we will see how this all goes. I later went to Brittany Gudan's bonfire...which was fun too! I got to meet tons of new people...so I was having a blast cooking mallows and hotdogs with Sam Hogue. I think I dominated at mallows...lol. Soon enough the rain came and I left.
Monday...hmmm...well I went to town this morning with my mother. Got a few things and stopped at the bee's to eat. That is where I saw the person that got in the way of everything in the past 2 yrs of my life (won't go into detail because it would take too long). Soon as I saw her...immediately I got a very bad stomachache. I get sick everytime I hear her name and see her anywhere. This stuff shouldn't bother me, but it still stings. O well, one day it will all disappear to the point that I could give 2 shits about it. 2o'clock rolled around pretty fast, which ment it was time to feed calves and milk...and we started chopping hay.....and I'm one of the haulers, so I did that also tonight. Got done at 7:45, got home, washed up, and went to Josh's coed softball game, where I saw people that I really didn't want to see. I'm upset because I really didn't do anything to get this kind of treatment from a person I was so close to at one point. But again....I'm gonna leave that go to.....goto forget about all that stuff.... go on with another day...which tomorrow is going to be long...and all work...:)
I have been having such weird things happen to me lately. I just don't get all this. Is it like a sign or something? Besides all my messed up things in my life....it has been pretty good so far.
First off Friday, My friends were having a bonfire at 8. I knew that it was going to be fun, but I didn't know that I was going to get ganged up on about being single. I really felt uncomfortable about the whole situation. They kept on and on about how its a good thing for me. BLAH BLAH BLAH! I really have a whole different outlook on relationships then everyone else. They feel that you get tons of freedom ( and sure you do), BUT you don't have that one person there that you feel you can go to whenever and just to be with them, and to know that they love you. Sure they have found that person in their lives and now they get to talk to me about the single life. I know that one of them hasn't been single in a very long time...and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't like it either. Deffinatetly pick on me the single girl....thanks. Gosh I hate it. Plus it was awkward talking about this stuff in front of one of my friends of whom supposedly had a thing for me. Yeah awkward...
Well I guess I can't say that Saturday nite was any better. My friend is with her ex for the billionth time....and everytime that starts up again....who gets put on the backburner?? me. Yep when he wants something from her or just wants her around....she will drop everything in front of her to just go straight to him. Which is so true....so if she reads this.....she cannot say anything about what I wrote because it is all true. We were having a good time that night and all of a sudden she got a text saying he was coming over....and then all of a sudden she wanted to go home. What a coincedence.....this is not the first time this has happened to me.....nope....and you know what??? I should just leave this stuff all go and forget all that had happened....Why is it such a big deal to me??? BECAUSE.....I would NEVER do that to someone when I'm with them. But whatever...I shrug it all off all the time....because I think to myself....she just wants to be with the guy that calls her friend a "whore"....and I'm always there for her when she needs me because I'm a good friend like that. And I treat her good and we don't get into stupid fights like she does with her "manwhore" 24/7. I have said as such to her as I possibly could about how he is to her, but that goes in one ear and out the other. Ok, if you want to be fighting and miserable for the rest of your life with him, by all means you are on the right track. And you know what? I say this all because I care about her and her wellbeing. She needs to start thinking more about herself and less about a boy that is trying to control her life. Sorry I had to rant.
And then there was Sunday. I went to church. Then I did some tiling project for my mom....which was pretty fun I must say. I was outside the whole day...in a swimsuit....and I turned into a lobster....oh boy. It was so nice out tho I just couldn't help it. I also got a call from someone I didn't think would be calling me. He said that he just wanted to talk...and it was actually nice to hear his voice again. We made a plan to go this sunday fishing....I'm excited! I said I couldn't go Saturday because of Pat's grad party and my lovely rendevous with weiler to a wedding reception and a grad party after....lol we will see how this all goes. I later went to Brittany Gudan's bonfire...which was fun too! I got to meet tons of new people...so I was having a blast cooking mallows and hotdogs with Sam Hogue. I think I dominated at mallows...lol. Soon enough the rain came and I left.
Monday...hmmm...well I went to town this morning with my mother. Got a few things and stopped at the bee's to eat. That is where I saw the person that got in the way of everything in the past 2 yrs of my life (won't go into detail because it would take too long). Soon as I saw her...immediately I got a very bad stomachache. I get sick everytime I hear her name and see her anywhere. This stuff shouldn't bother me, but it still stings. O well, one day it will all disappear to the point that I could give 2 shits about it. 2o'clock rolled around pretty fast, which ment it was time to feed calves and milk...and we started chopping hay.....and I'm one of the haulers, so I did that also tonight. Got done at 7:45, got home, washed up, and went to Josh's coed softball game, where I saw people that I really didn't want to see. I'm upset because I really didn't do anything to get this kind of treatment from a person I was so close to at one point. But again....I'm gonna leave that go to.....goto forget about all that stuff.... go on with another day...which tomorrow is going to be long...and all work...:)
Thursday, May 28, 2009
HAPPY BDAY MOM!!!
Today started as Good/Bad/Good day...
Good part: I got up excited to go get my hair done. I was for sure I knew what I was going to get done. I also was excited that it was my mom's bday today. Our plans were to go get the hair done, go bowling at 1, and then go to eat. Tiff and I went to get the hair done by ourselves:
Bad part: I was gettin my hair bleached where I wanted the purple. Jackie (my haircutter) said that purple will not stay in my hair or any hair. It will be gone in 3 days. So then I said that I guess I should go with the red then since the other color wouldn't work. I'm sitting there and she asks if I should try Grape Serbert. It is a color that they didn't know how it would turn out. They asked if they should just try it. I said if it is purple then sure. So we are putting this in with blonde highlights after my bleaching is done. She kept telling herself that the grape stuff was turning purple. Sure it was. She also adding dark brown to the rest of my hair when all the highlight stuff was in. I then waited for a good 45 min. for that . She rinsed me out, cut it, and styled it. And the thing I said to her was that I wanted thicker and longer angled bangs. What do I get? Short choppy angled bangs that were thin. Ya I was pissed. But the thing that really got me was after I was all styled and everything, she said she didn't like the grape color because it was like a washed out mahogany look and it was not good. It was too washed out in her eyes. And it did look like shit in mine too. So what does she do? leaves the room for a while and comes back with the color that she said would wash out in a couple days. Why I have no idea. So she starts putting this in and it is already one and a half hours passed our bowling time...so the family was having fun without us. She said that the purple needed to sit in for 15 minutes. I was fuming by then. Why did I waste so much time on this? 4 hours of a mistake! Nothing that I wanted! I seriously wanted to cry right then and there. But I kept it cool, as she walked over to wash the purple out. I told her I had no time to style it again. So we paid, and got the hell out of there. I even made Tiff drive my car, since I was so upset and trying to fix my hair. I needed to put makeup on too. Tiff heard me rant and rave the whole way to mtown about my hair...I was seriously going to punch someone. I never had such a bad turnout. I get to the rose bowl, and all my fam is there, even the very critical ones. I walk in the door and they all say they like it just to make my feel good. If made me feel worse. I seriously cried. I went to the bathroom to calm down. I thought to myself, "Why the hell am I crying over such stupid things?" But it just really bothered me. I hated my bangs, they seem so short. And why have purple if it won't last? I don't get it. But when I came out of the bathroom my fam really ment what they said. They really liked it. Even the ones I thought would make fun of me liked it. I still didn't like the fact that it didn't turn out the way I pictured it. I guess it will be something to get used to. I now have purple, and lets hope it lasts. I think I was also very upset about was not being at bowling with my mom on her bday. I wanted to be there, and I missed it because of my stupid hair. I think that was another reason for why I cried. I wanted to be there, and it's all my fault. I shouldn't have scheduled my hair for that day.......but I can't change things now...and I have to wait for my hair to grow out.
Good part: My family has been trying to plan a surprise party for my mother for about a week now, and the person that set all this up was my sister Jenna. And yes she is 11. I thought for sure that she would find out one way or another, but she never put 2 and 2 together. I took her for a walk in pitts with me, so that everyone could go and hide out in my house. The funny thing is is that Paul and Stac were there already and parked in the other garage. I was nervous that my mom would see them, so I texted them sayin to hide and close the garage door. She never noticed ahaha. As soon as we got back Betty's car was there and I told my mom that she wanted me to go along to a party that she was invited to, and that she came early to pick me up. She goes to the door and SURPRISE!!!!!! She was shocked...I never seen her so happy. She even started to cry....which made her hide behind the wall because she was just so happy. She even made me cry seeing her like that. It was deffinately a great feeling. She knew she was thought of. I loved just how she was glowing with happiness because everyone that she loved and is close to was there. It was great. We sang happy bday to her and paul since his is coming up. We played badmitton and my team won it. Terry and Rarron came to play games too. Mom was having fun playing Trivia for Dummies and MadGab. It was a great night with great food and great people. I truely enjoyed it.
I love you mom with all my heart!!! xxxooo
Good part: I got up excited to go get my hair done. I was for sure I knew what I was going to get done. I also was excited that it was my mom's bday today. Our plans were to go get the hair done, go bowling at 1, and then go to eat. Tiff and I went to get the hair done by ourselves:
Bad part: I was gettin my hair bleached where I wanted the purple. Jackie (my haircutter) said that purple will not stay in my hair or any hair. It will be gone in 3 days. So then I said that I guess I should go with the red then since the other color wouldn't work. I'm sitting there and she asks if I should try Grape Serbert. It is a color that they didn't know how it would turn out. They asked if they should just try it. I said if it is purple then sure. So we are putting this in with blonde highlights after my bleaching is done. She kept telling herself that the grape stuff was turning purple. Sure it was. She also adding dark brown to the rest of my hair when all the highlight stuff was in. I then waited for a good 45 min. for that . She rinsed me out, cut it, and styled it. And the thing I said to her was that I wanted thicker and longer angled bangs. What do I get? Short choppy angled bangs that were thin. Ya I was pissed. But the thing that really got me was after I was all styled and everything, she said she didn't like the grape color because it was like a washed out mahogany look and it was not good. It was too washed out in her eyes. And it did look like shit in mine too. So what does she do? leaves the room for a while and comes back with the color that she said would wash out in a couple days. Why I have no idea. So she starts putting this in and it is already one and a half hours passed our bowling time...so the family was having fun without us. She said that the purple needed to sit in for 15 minutes. I was fuming by then. Why did I waste so much time on this? 4 hours of a mistake! Nothing that I wanted! I seriously wanted to cry right then and there. But I kept it cool, as she walked over to wash the purple out. I told her I had no time to style it again. So we paid, and got the hell out of there. I even made Tiff drive my car, since I was so upset and trying to fix my hair. I needed to put makeup on too. Tiff heard me rant and rave the whole way to mtown about my hair...I was seriously going to punch someone. I never had such a bad turnout. I get to the rose bowl, and all my fam is there, even the very critical ones. I walk in the door and they all say they like it just to make my feel good. If made me feel worse. I seriously cried. I went to the bathroom to calm down. I thought to myself, "Why the hell am I crying over such stupid things?" But it just really bothered me. I hated my bangs, they seem so short. And why have purple if it won't last? I don't get it. But when I came out of the bathroom my fam really ment what they said. They really liked it. Even the ones I thought would make fun of me liked it. I still didn't like the fact that it didn't turn out the way I pictured it. I guess it will be something to get used to. I now have purple, and lets hope it lasts. I think I was also very upset about was not being at bowling with my mom on her bday. I wanted to be there, and I missed it because of my stupid hair. I think that was another reason for why I cried. I wanted to be there, and it's all my fault. I shouldn't have scheduled my hair for that day.......but I can't change things now...and I have to wait for my hair to grow out.
Good part: My family has been trying to plan a surprise party for my mother for about a week now, and the person that set all this up was my sister Jenna. And yes she is 11. I thought for sure that she would find out one way or another, but she never put 2 and 2 together. I took her for a walk in pitts with me, so that everyone could go and hide out in my house. The funny thing is is that Paul and Stac were there already and parked in the other garage. I was nervous that my mom would see them, so I texted them sayin to hide and close the garage door. She never noticed ahaha. As soon as we got back Betty's car was there and I told my mom that she wanted me to go along to a party that she was invited to, and that she came early to pick me up. She goes to the door and SURPRISE!!!!!! She was shocked...I never seen her so happy. She even started to cry....which made her hide behind the wall because she was just so happy. She even made me cry seeing her like that. It was deffinately a great feeling. She knew she was thought of. I loved just how she was glowing with happiness because everyone that she loved and is close to was there. It was great. We sang happy bday to her and paul since his is coming up. We played badmitton and my team won it. Terry and Rarron came to play games too. Mom was having fun playing Trivia for Dummies and MadGab. It was a great night with great food and great people. I truely enjoyed it.
I love you mom with all my heart!!! xxxooo
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Rain is a Bitch
Rain, Rain, Go away!!!.....
I'm sick and tired of all this rain....brian niznansky said it would be over in the early afternoon....LIAR? But yea..went to Mtown...did alittle shoppy shoppy....and I actually didn't feel like shopping either, which is weird for me...I normally love it. Today was crap with all the rain and it being cold.
Mariah text me today to see what I was up to. Of course I was in town and thats where she wanted to go...typical...lol. I did tell her that I had an acking to bake, and for her to come over when I got home. She came as soon as I told her to. I said we should bake cupcakes...she said that would be great....but it ended up being me baking and her watching....just as I thought. She said her mom doesn't allow her to cook, since she is so bad..lol. The cupcakes turned out wonderful! YUM YUM!
Later on we watched a movie and a half...lol my mom was tired so we will finish it later. Tomorrow is my mom's BDAY!!!! We are goin bowling and out to eat....so excited and this is all after tiff and I get our hair done. Mine is gonna be dark brown with purple and Bleach blonde chunks...so excited!
Well I should go and lift weights like I keep telling myself....goal: lose up to 5 lbs and get tone for countryfest...fingers crossed....:)
I'm sick and tired of all this rain....brian niznansky said it would be over in the early afternoon....LIAR? But yea..went to Mtown...did alittle shoppy shoppy....and I actually didn't feel like shopping either, which is weird for me...I normally love it. Today was crap with all the rain and it being cold.
Mariah text me today to see what I was up to. Of course I was in town and thats where she wanted to go...typical...lol. I did tell her that I had an acking to bake, and for her to come over when I got home. She came as soon as I told her to. I said we should bake cupcakes...she said that would be great....but it ended up being me baking and her watching....just as I thought. She said her mom doesn't allow her to cook, since she is so bad..lol. The cupcakes turned out wonderful! YUM YUM!
Later on we watched a movie and a half...lol my mom was tired so we will finish it later. Tomorrow is my mom's BDAY!!!! We are goin bowling and out to eat....so excited and this is all after tiff and I get our hair done. Mine is gonna be dark brown with purple and Bleach blonde chunks...so excited!
Well I should go and lift weights like I keep telling myself....goal: lose up to 5 lbs and get tone for countryfest...fingers crossed....:)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Been Too Tired To Even Blog!
WELL......
First off I can't believe it's Monday already. Its so crazy....the weekend went by like a blurr. Friday I worked all day, went to see Night at the Museum 2...which was better than the first. Saturday I went to graduation...lets just say..YAWN...plus it rained which sucked. The rest of the day consisted of downloading over 100 songs, and went to Seth's (my future husband...according to Heather lol) party....I was there ALL day, but I did go to church like I should. The only thing that was productive Saturday night was that I out ate all the guys with 3 full plates of food...lol. I also made plans with Tiff, Alex, and Margo to watch the The Little Mermaid trilogy...yep you read that right. That's my FAVORITE movie! I haven't decided what night we will watch those because Alex said that we have to watch all 3 in one night. OH BOY! I'm excited! and Then came Sunday...Mom and I were all by our lonesome...so what do we do? GO SHOPPING! Appleton was calling our names...and yes I got some sweet things...1 pair of tennis, 1 pair awesome sandels, and I can't believe I'm saying this but I did find some shirts and a bag into Hollister. I think I went in there because I was just so emotionally drained from seeing Jimmy'z being shut down. Tears were forming (not really). After I got over the fact of my fav store closing, my mom and I decided we wanted some great Red Lobster...YUM! That night we got home very tired and decided to make popcorn and watch a movie, just the two of us...until Heather called. lol She was having a bonfire and I was needed to be there or else. And I deffinately don't want to make Heather upset. A pregnant lady has flying hormones....and Heather had those even before being pregnant..lol O I love Heather. I thought to myself too that if I stayed out late that I could sleep in on Memorial Day.....but no. I got up and went to lunch with my mom, gpa, uncle, and my big turd I call my cousin Tiff. Plus I had to work! I fed calves and milked....it wasn't bad at all....I can say it was a good day. O I forgot to say that I got to help with the birthing process on a cow. Boy I was soo excited about it. I really wanted to just jump right in and help right after my uncles told me that one of the cows just came fresh. It was actually hard work to pull the little guy out. Ha after awhile of pulling we hooked the hooves up to a crank system...which made to job a whole lot easier. My uncle said that the calf looked dead, but I was hopeing that the little guy was alive. Soon as it hit the floor, he was wide awake. I loved it...and I want to for sure do it again.
So I have been hearing about everyone going fishing......BUT ME! Does anyone know how upsetting this is??? I just invested in a fishing license for the 3rd year...this will be the year that I can see already, that there will be hardly any fishing. Someone told me that they were going to take me fishing if I had no one to go with....and that hasn't happened yet. Actually they haven't talked to me in a long time. Pretty sure this person is avoiding me, but whatever. Sorry I'm not going to bring this person's name into this. I don't want anyone to assume anything. But anyways.....My dad also said that he would take me fishing...PSHH...that will never happen. He is a big talker, plus he isn't a big fisherman. I want to go with someone that is fun, can talk with easily, and likes to be with me out fishing all day. I want to fish with someone that has a great understanding of fishing...and I know a person just like that, but who knows if that will ever happen....I really do miss fishing with this person. We were a great team either on boat or on shore....but now I just get upset when ppl start talking about fishing. Ha I have an uncle that loves to fish and is pretty good at it, but will he take me...not if my life depended on it. I don't even ask anymore, it gets me nowhere. I think I'm going to go to fleet farm, buy a shit ton of bait and repalas, and go fishing in my cousin's pond....I'm garaunteed a pan fish, which is a lot smaller then what I want to fish for, but it sure is better than nothing.
Gosh that's all I think about. All the things I can't do because I'm alone. Sure I can do stuff with the family, but it is always better when you have a partner there to push you to try new things or do fun stuff. I think about my cuz Tiff and how she has it good with Jake. They do so many things together, if its not basketball its tennis, and if not that then going to eat together. It's hard for me to be by myself, and it's also hard when you would like to do something with ppl and they are busy with say their boyfriends. I know I would probably be the same way, but it's hard for me right now because I'm single. I know that everyone says being single is a good thing and that it gives you a lot of "me" time, but I truely hate it. I really do. It is the worst feeling:alone. I guess that could mean that I'm not fully independent, but I'm also deffinately not dependent on ppl either. I love to take care of the person I'm with. Thats what makes me a happy person. I don't really understand why I am the way I am. Wow that sounds like I sure am whining about my life right now. lol Well I know for a fact, I sure will feel alone when I go to Countryfest this year...my cuz and her bf, and a couple they know, then it's me and stacy. Yeah me and Stacy. What a great couple we are...and I'm going to listen to all the sobby country music and all I'm gonna do is think of the person that got me into it....yeah fun time:(.....I'll get over it tho. One way or another.
Well I'm getting tired of blogging...I'm gonna go make myself some Nikes on nike.com. :)
First off I can't believe it's Monday already. Its so crazy....the weekend went by like a blurr. Friday I worked all day, went to see Night at the Museum 2...which was better than the first. Saturday I went to graduation...lets just say..YAWN...plus it rained which sucked. The rest of the day consisted of downloading over 100 songs, and went to Seth's (my future husband...according to Heather lol) party....I was there ALL day, but I did go to church like I should. The only thing that was productive Saturday night was that I out ate all the guys with 3 full plates of food...lol. I also made plans with Tiff, Alex, and Margo to watch the The Little Mermaid trilogy...yep you read that right. That's my FAVORITE movie! I haven't decided what night we will watch those because Alex said that we have to watch all 3 in one night. OH BOY! I'm excited! and Then came Sunday...Mom and I were all by our lonesome...so what do we do? GO SHOPPING! Appleton was calling our names...and yes I got some sweet things...1 pair of tennis, 1 pair awesome sandels, and I can't believe I'm saying this but I did find some shirts and a bag into Hollister. I think I went in there because I was just so emotionally drained from seeing Jimmy'z being shut down. Tears were forming (not really). After I got over the fact of my fav store closing, my mom and I decided we wanted some great Red Lobster...YUM! That night we got home very tired and decided to make popcorn and watch a movie, just the two of us...until Heather called. lol She was having a bonfire and I was needed to be there or else. And I deffinately don't want to make Heather upset. A pregnant lady has flying hormones....and Heather had those even before being pregnant..lol O I love Heather. I thought to myself too that if I stayed out late that I could sleep in on Memorial Day.....but no. I got up and went to lunch with my mom, gpa, uncle, and my big turd I call my cousin Tiff. Plus I had to work! I fed calves and milked....it wasn't bad at all....I can say it was a good day. O I forgot to say that I got to help with the birthing process on a cow. Boy I was soo excited about it. I really wanted to just jump right in and help right after my uncles told me that one of the cows just came fresh. It was actually hard work to pull the little guy out. Ha after awhile of pulling we hooked the hooves up to a crank system...which made to job a whole lot easier. My uncle said that the calf looked dead, but I was hopeing that the little guy was alive. Soon as it hit the floor, he was wide awake. I loved it...and I want to for sure do it again.
So I have been hearing about everyone going fishing......BUT ME! Does anyone know how upsetting this is??? I just invested in a fishing license for the 3rd year...this will be the year that I can see already, that there will be hardly any fishing. Someone told me that they were going to take me fishing if I had no one to go with....and that hasn't happened yet. Actually they haven't talked to me in a long time. Pretty sure this person is avoiding me, but whatever. Sorry I'm not going to bring this person's name into this. I don't want anyone to assume anything. But anyways.....My dad also said that he would take me fishing...PSHH...that will never happen. He is a big talker, plus he isn't a big fisherman. I want to go with someone that is fun, can talk with easily, and likes to be with me out fishing all day. I want to fish with someone that has a great understanding of fishing...and I know a person just like that, but who knows if that will ever happen....I really do miss fishing with this person. We were a great team either on boat or on shore....but now I just get upset when ppl start talking about fishing. Ha I have an uncle that loves to fish and is pretty good at it, but will he take me...not if my life depended on it. I don't even ask anymore, it gets me nowhere. I think I'm going to go to fleet farm, buy a shit ton of bait and repalas, and go fishing in my cousin's pond....I'm garaunteed a pan fish, which is a lot smaller then what I want to fish for, but it sure is better than nothing.
Gosh that's all I think about. All the things I can't do because I'm alone. Sure I can do stuff with the family, but it is always better when you have a partner there to push you to try new things or do fun stuff. I think about my cuz Tiff and how she has it good with Jake. They do so many things together, if its not basketball its tennis, and if not that then going to eat together. It's hard for me to be by myself, and it's also hard when you would like to do something with ppl and they are busy with say their boyfriends. I know I would probably be the same way, but it's hard for me right now because I'm single. I know that everyone says being single is a good thing and that it gives you a lot of "me" time, but I truely hate it. I really do. It is the worst feeling:alone. I guess that could mean that I'm not fully independent, but I'm also deffinately not dependent on ppl either. I love to take care of the person I'm with. Thats what makes me a happy person. I don't really understand why I am the way I am. Wow that sounds like I sure am whining about my life right now. lol Well I know for a fact, I sure will feel alone when I go to Countryfest this year...my cuz and her bf, and a couple they know, then it's me and stacy. Yeah me and Stacy. What a great couple we are...and I'm going to listen to all the sobby country music and all I'm gonna do is think of the person that got me into it....yeah fun time:(.....I'll get over it tho. One way or another.
Well I'm getting tired of blogging...I'm gonna go make myself some Nikes on nike.com. :)
Thursday, May 21, 2009
WHY DOES GRASS HAVE TO GROW?
Seriously....mowing the yard is not my specialty, and I definitely don't like to do it EVER. It's one of those jobs that I want to hire someone else to do because of how long it takes my family to actually get all of it done. We have a pretty big yard with all kinds of trees and rock gardens, and such all over. It practically makes our yard an obstacle course. Usually I have to push mow around everything, but today I got to use the rider. Which was very nice.
This morning I woke up early to go for a walk. It was actually a nice breezy day. After the walk, My mom and I went to the Chiropractor (she does the massaging and rubbing technic, instead of the cracking and killing your back).
Tonight Carl had a bonfire. Not many people were there to talk to, plus I didn't no half of them anyways.....So I'm falling asleep as I'm writing......I'm going to stop.
This morning I woke up early to go for a walk. It was actually a nice breezy day. After the walk, My mom and I went to the Chiropractor (she does the massaging and rubbing technic, instead of the cracking and killing your back).
Tonight Carl had a bonfire. Not many people were there to talk to, plus I didn't no half of them anyways.....So I'm falling asleep as I'm writing......I'm going to stop.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Busy busy busy....
First off...I'm already tired.
but i can't get off here to save my life. I haven't been able to sleep in like I like to usually. My mom had to come in and wake me up to go for a walk with her at 9. Yea that doesn't sound that early, but for me that is precious time that I should be taking to sleep. But no, I had to get up and walk the dogs with my mom. When we got back it was so nice and quiet in the house without my sis and bro. AHAHAH school is calling them yet....too bad. I went shopping with my mom today and went to the ZA to eat. We pretty much went there just for Jonie, our favorite waitress. She is a doll.
Here is the exciting part of my day. Wait for it.....wait for it...I helped my mom load dirt into the gator, as she was shoveling it from the side of the house....fun fun...(catch the sarcasm). I did that in my swimsuit because I wanted to catch some rays....but I would have rather layed out for that....and my ending result=no sun=no suntan=really lame. It was flippin over 80 today...perfect for a tan. But did I get one....NO. Oh well, tomorrow is another day for it.
Later on tonight I went to my sis's softball game...they lost pretty bad. and it was a bit boring to watch all the little mistakes kids that age do. I give them all credit for playing tho. It finally ended and I got home to see the American Idol finale, I for sure thought that Adam would win, but the Kris won. I don't keep up with this stuff anyways, so I wasn't extra happy/sad.
And now I am here.....in my bed...all alone...haha...was talking to Chris about our lonely lives...yeah it sures makes me think about the past and the future and what it all holds for me.
but i can't get off here to save my life. I haven't been able to sleep in like I like to usually. My mom had to come in and wake me up to go for a walk with her at 9. Yea that doesn't sound that early, but for me that is precious time that I should be taking to sleep. But no, I had to get up and walk the dogs with my mom. When we got back it was so nice and quiet in the house without my sis and bro. AHAHAH school is calling them yet....too bad. I went shopping with my mom today and went to the ZA to eat. We pretty much went there just for Jonie, our favorite waitress. She is a doll.
Here is the exciting part of my day. Wait for it.....wait for it...I helped my mom load dirt into the gator, as she was shoveling it from the side of the house....fun fun...(catch the sarcasm). I did that in my swimsuit because I wanted to catch some rays....but I would have rather layed out for that....and my ending result=no sun=no suntan=really lame. It was flippin over 80 today...perfect for a tan. But did I get one....NO. Oh well, tomorrow is another day for it.
Later on tonight I went to my sis's softball game...they lost pretty bad. and it was a bit boring to watch all the little mistakes kids that age do. I give them all credit for playing tho. It finally ended and I got home to see the American Idol finale, I for sure thought that Adam would win, but the Kris won. I don't keep up with this stuff anyways, so I wasn't extra happy/sad.
And now I am here.....in my bed...all alone...haha...was talking to Chris about our lonely lives...yeah it sures makes me think about the past and the future and what it all holds for me.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Long ass Tuesdays
WORK......that is pretty much all I can say....I practically was at the farm the whole day sweeping, shoveling, moving hay, and milking. Went to eat at the cafe and I saw Rose and Dale Zawislan. They are such a nice couple, and Rose alone is seriously one of the nicest people I have met. She is just so friendly.
Came home and was outside for a bit. I was freakin hot out the whole day. Them liars on TV are getting to me. They said 62. It turned out to be 83. Jeez!
At the end of the night I went to Mariah's and talk/watch a movie. Then of course she got tired...which is my que to go home.
I'm so tired....too much work today!
Came home and was outside for a bit. I was freakin hot out the whole day. Them liars on TV are getting to me. They said 62. It turned out to be 83. Jeez!
At the end of the night I went to Mariah's and talk/watch a movie. Then of course she got tired...which is my que to go home.
I'm so tired....too much work today!
Monday, May 18, 2009
JUST ANOTHER MANIC MONDAY....
URG...
Well I'm gonna try to leave this short because I'm a very tired person right at this minute and I have a very early work schedule for tomorrow....It sounds like a winner...YAY...wow way too much enthusiasm. But anyways, I got up to go to Mtown with my mom, while my bro and sis went to school...ha ha I don't feel one bit sad for them....PAHAH..but that's besides the point. Today was the day to get our bigillion groceries, and I mean a ton. We wait til we are all gone with everything in the house and nothing left to survive on. And that's when we go to get our groceries. This involves at least two carts full of groceries, and random people asking if we need the drive up help....we hate that more then anything. We also can't stand when workers ask why we need so much food. It's none of their damn business...just keep scanning will ya?!
I knew that we wouldn't be in town for very long because I had to get back and milk the ladies, and feed their babies. Wow didn't even mean to rhyme there and I just did. Ha.
Got back around 1:30 and left the house at around 2. Matt told me to bring my A-game. Ha what a joke...I'll bring what I want to bring. I thought the milking went faster today then normal, but we got done at the same time. I thought I had a great speed today and was never behind. It was a great day...I didn't get shit on or pissed on. I especially like that none of the cows lashed out at me with their hooves. There was one though that I thought would have kicked me right our the metal railing, but she calmed down.
My cousin was extra nice to me while working and that is usually nothing like him. Usually he lashes out at me calling me names and making fun of me. I think he was this way because of the situation of his co-ed softball team. He didn't ask me to play. I was so pissed, but I was happy that my mom kinda reamed him a new one. But whatever I'm over it now, and have let it go. I don't expect much out of him, especially for me. And being the nicest person I am, I went to his game and watched. I really wanted to boo him, but I just can't do that.
Later on at night, Mariah visited and stayed past her bedtime, which is like what? 9:00? ha ha
And now I should be too. I'll write more tomorrow (actually that is today since it is 2:00 in the morning).
Well I'm gonna try to leave this short because I'm a very tired person right at this minute and I have a very early work schedule for tomorrow....It sounds like a winner...YAY...wow way too much enthusiasm. But anyways, I got up to go to Mtown with my mom, while my bro and sis went to school...ha ha I don't feel one bit sad for them....PAHAH..but that's besides the point. Today was the day to get our bigillion groceries, and I mean a ton. We wait til we are all gone with everything in the house and nothing left to survive on. And that's when we go to get our groceries. This involves at least two carts full of groceries, and random people asking if we need the drive up help....we hate that more then anything. We also can't stand when workers ask why we need so much food. It's none of their damn business...just keep scanning will ya?!
I knew that we wouldn't be in town for very long because I had to get back and milk the ladies, and feed their babies. Wow didn't even mean to rhyme there and I just did. Ha.
Got back around 1:30 and left the house at around 2. Matt told me to bring my A-game. Ha what a joke...I'll bring what I want to bring. I thought the milking went faster today then normal, but we got done at the same time. I thought I had a great speed today and was never behind. It was a great day...I didn't get shit on or pissed on. I especially like that none of the cows lashed out at me with their hooves. There was one though that I thought would have kicked me right our the metal railing, but she calmed down.
My cousin was extra nice to me while working and that is usually nothing like him. Usually he lashes out at me calling me names and making fun of me. I think he was this way because of the situation of his co-ed softball team. He didn't ask me to play. I was so pissed, but I was happy that my mom kinda reamed him a new one. But whatever I'm over it now, and have let it go. I don't expect much out of him, especially for me. And being the nicest person I am, I went to his game and watched. I really wanted to boo him, but I just can't do that.
Later on at night, Mariah visited and stayed past her bedtime, which is like what? 9:00? ha ha
And now I should be too. I'll write more tomorrow (actually that is today since it is 2:00 in the morning).
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Sunday Bloody Sunday
A LONG DAY OF NOTHING....
Today seemed to have a way of exhausting me without it really exhausting me. I went to church this morning like a good Catholic girl should, sat through a very long and repetitive homily, and listen to the many loud kids in church. Don't get me wrong, I love KIDS, it just distracted me that's all. After church ended my family and I went to go visit my grandma gravestone. If the people reading this don't really know me and whats going on in my life right now, my wonderful grandma just recently passed away. It is still a very hard thing to fathom that she is actually gone. I don't go without a nite thinking about her and how much I miss her. I was so close with her. We had sleepovers when my grandpa was gone, I could talk to her about everything, and also she was the BEST COOK that I have ever had.......and I mean BEST! She could stick her hand in the flour and all the ingredients and literally throw things together....and they would turn out fabulous. She was the best grandma anyone could have. I want to say this to anyone that is reading this.....spend as much time with your grandparents as possible.....life goes by way too fast and there will be a point in life that something will go wrong and you may lose the one you love. I am telling you this because I feel this way now. I regret now being there for my grandma all the time. I should have went to visit more then what I did. I feel so selfish now that it kills me to think about it now. But I have to stay strong and think of all the good times we did have.
Later on after church, my mom, sis, and I planted the garden. I'm getting so excited about all the veggies we are going to have...YUM! I am definitely a pea freak. They are so good straight out of the garden. After making the whole garden, I had some errands to run in Mtown. I strolled into Wally World....and does anyone else see this or is it all me? ......that everytime you go into the place, you are surrounded by CREEPY PEOPLE? I feel this all the time....I think that is why I don't like to go there. Everytime I leave I feel a need to take a shower....
There was also a old car cruise tonight that went around Pville and Dexterville Drivein. We drove the 1973 Dodge Challenger. It was pretty fun, but it just doesn't cut it when you sit passenger the whole time. I'm more of a driver. Ha I told my dad that I want to start drag racing, and I'm serious about it. I don't think that's going to happen any time soon. But he did say that I could take the car by myself next time. SURE....that's gonna happen.....I doubt it....
When we got home, I watched some good movies (My Best Friend's Wedding/Monster-in-Law) with my mom. I love spending time with her. She cracks me up.
And the finale, I'm in bed talking about my slightly boring day. I know that you thought it was. HA. But yeah, starting to milk tomorrow for the summer....I get to say HI to the ladies at 2 tomorrow, then might head down to the co-ed softy games. We will have to see tho.....To be honest summer has not hit me yet. I still have the urge to do homework and study for tests....thats pretty redic if you ask me. I do hope that tomorrow brings more interesting things then today....but good nite til then
KH
Today seemed to have a way of exhausting me without it really exhausting me. I went to church this morning like a good Catholic girl should, sat through a very long and repetitive homily, and listen to the many loud kids in church. Don't get me wrong, I love KIDS, it just distracted me that's all. After church ended my family and I went to go visit my grandma gravestone. If the people reading this don't really know me and whats going on in my life right now, my wonderful grandma just recently passed away. It is still a very hard thing to fathom that she is actually gone. I don't go without a nite thinking about her and how much I miss her. I was so close with her. We had sleepovers when my grandpa was gone, I could talk to her about everything, and also she was the BEST COOK that I have ever had.......and I mean BEST! She could stick her hand in the flour and all the ingredients and literally throw things together....and they would turn out fabulous. She was the best grandma anyone could have. I want to say this to anyone that is reading this.....spend as much time with your grandparents as possible.....life goes by way too fast and there will be a point in life that something will go wrong and you may lose the one you love. I am telling you this because I feel this way now. I regret now being there for my grandma all the time. I should have went to visit more then what I did. I feel so selfish now that it kills me to think about it now. But I have to stay strong and think of all the good times we did have.
Later on after church, my mom, sis, and I planted the garden. I'm getting so excited about all the veggies we are going to have...YUM! I am definitely a pea freak. They are so good straight out of the garden. After making the whole garden, I had some errands to run in Mtown. I strolled into Wally World....and does anyone else see this or is it all me? ......that everytime you go into the place, you are surrounded by CREEPY PEOPLE? I feel this all the time....I think that is why I don't like to go there. Everytime I leave I feel a need to take a shower....
There was also a old car cruise tonight that went around Pville and Dexterville Drivein. We drove the 1973 Dodge Challenger. It was pretty fun, but it just doesn't cut it when you sit passenger the whole time. I'm more of a driver. Ha I told my dad that I want to start drag racing, and I'm serious about it. I don't think that's going to happen any time soon. But he did say that I could take the car by myself next time. SURE....that's gonna happen.....I doubt it....
When we got home, I watched some good movies (My Best Friend's Wedding/Monster-in-Law) with my mom. I love spending time with her. She cracks me up.
And the finale, I'm in bed talking about my slightly boring day. I know that you thought it was. HA. But yeah, starting to milk tomorrow for the summer....I get to say HI to the ladies at 2 tomorrow, then might head down to the co-ed softy games. We will have to see tho.....To be honest summer has not hit me yet. I still have the urge to do homework and study for tests....thats pretty redic if you ask me. I do hope that tomorrow brings more interesting things then today....but good nite til then
KH
I'm devirginized from blogging!
TODAY IS THE DAY.....
that I start my own blog. I have been wanting to start this since I saw Steph's blog. So thanks to Steph, now is my time to write about whatever the hell I want. It's this great feeling of release when I get to write about things that I encounter and enjoy at the same time. It has been a very long and exhausting day. This morning I woke up early by some of my many friends at EC. It was our last day to spend together before our summers alone begin. I really was sad about all the goodbyes and seeing our dorms so vacant. I will also truly miss my RA Danielle. She was great! I know for a fact that when she graduates she will be the best nurse out there. She has such a caring and loving heart on her. I want to be just like her in the sense of being the best nurse possible.
Saying goodbye to Jessica, my favorite redhead i
n the whole wide world, was so hard. I feel that I have grown the closest to her. Kirsten and suzie were also very hard to say adios to. I will be making plenty of trips down to Appleton just to see those two and hang out.
When I finally decided to leave i stopped by an ole friends house to say a few things to get them off my chest. I really dont know why i did this. I guess I felt I needed to get my point across to him and say what I needed to say. Realizing after I had done this, there wasnt a need for me to have done that. He knew everything already, which is a surprise to me. But this is all besides the point...
I got home and decided to go and make myself miserable by driving with my great mom and aunt to watch my bro play in a bball tourney.....the weather.....cold + windy= SHIT. It took FOREVER! I tried sleeping through most of it, on the way home, and crashed later on the couch. I think that is why I'm so awake right now.
HAHA before I finish up I probably should say that our last night was the most random last night ever. It consisted of playing WHAT IF?, making our own music video to "Sex on the beach", and eating two 20 inch pizzas with bread sticks.....while cuddling up on our futons in the basement watching American Pie. What a great last night.......To all my great friends that I have met....Jessica, Kirsten, Suzie, Emily, Sam, MarCHa lol, Amy, Sammi, Alaina, Amberleigh, And all the great guys on first floor....especially justin...(.I will really miss our great Air Bud nights and our long random talks....you are a great friend), u all made such an impact on my life.....I know that I will see you all very soon and I know that next year will be an even bigger blast! looking forward to it all!!! Love you guys!!!!
I'm going to TRY to keep this up everyday, but i doubt that will happen with my very busy schedule.....I will try my darndest....
that I start my own blog. I have been wanting to start this since I saw Steph's blog. So thanks to Steph, now is my time to write about whatever the hell I want. It's this great feeling of release when I get to write about things that I encounter and enjoy at the same time. It has been a very long and exhausting day. This morning I woke up early by some of my many friends at EC. It was our last day to spend together before our summers alone begin. I really was sad about all the goodbyes and seeing our dorms so vacant. I will also truly miss my RA Danielle. She was great! I know for a fact that when she graduates she will be the best nurse out there. She has such a caring and loving heart on her. I want to be just like her in the sense of being the best nurse possible.
Saying goodbye to Jessica, my favorite redhead i
n the whole wide world, was so hard. I feel that I have grown the closest to her. Kirsten and suzie were also very hard to say adios to. I will be making plenty of trips down to Appleton just to see those two and hang out. When I finally decided to leave i stopped by an ole friends house to say a few things to get them off my chest. I really dont know why i did this. I guess I felt I needed to get my point across to him and say what I needed to say. Realizing after I had done this, there wasnt a need for me to have done that. He knew everything already, which is a surprise to me. But this is all besides the point...
I got home and decided to go and make myself miserable by driving with my great mom and aunt to watch my bro play in a bball tourney.....the weather.....cold + windy= SHIT. It took FOREVER! I tried sleeping through most of it, on the way home, and crashed later on the couch. I think that is why I'm so awake right now.
HAHA before I finish up I probably should say that our last night was the most random last night ever. It consisted of playing WHAT IF?, making our own music video to "Sex on the beach", and eating two 20 inch pizzas with bread sticks.....while cuddling up on our futons in the basement watching American Pie. What a great last night.......To all my great friends that I have met....Jessica, Kirsten, Suzie, Emily, Sam, MarCHa lol, Amy, Sammi, Alaina, Amberleigh, And all the great guys on first floor....especially justin...(.I will really miss our great Air Bud nights and our long random talks....you are a great friend), u all made such an impact on my life.....I know that I will see you all very soon and I know that next year will be an even bigger blast! looking forward to it all!!! Love you guys!!!!
I'm going to TRY to keep this up everyday, but i doubt that will happen with my very busy schedule.....I will try my darndest....
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