HAPPY BDAY MOM!!!

Today started as Good/Bad/Good day...
Good part: I got up excited to go get my hair done. I was for sure I knew what I was going to get done. I also was excited that it was my mom's bday today. Our plans were to go get the hair done, go bowling at 1, and then go to eat. Tiff and I went to get the hair done by ourselves:

Bad part: I was gettin my hair bleached where I wanted the purple. Jackie (my haircutter) said that purple will not stay in my hair or any hair. It will be gone in 3 days. So then I said that I guess I should go with the red then since the other color wouldn't work. I'm sitting there and she asks if I should try Grape Serbert. It is a color that they didn't know how it would turn out. They asked if they should just try it. I said if it is purple then sure. So we are putting this in with blonde highlights after my bleaching is done. She kept telling herself that the grape stuff was turning purple. Sure it was. She also adding dark brown to the rest of my hair when all the highlight stuff was in. I then waited for a good 45 min. for that . She rinsed me out, cut it, and styled it. And the thing I said to her was that I wanted thicker and longer angled bangs. What do I get? Short choppy angled bangs that were thin. Ya I was pissed. But the thing that really got me was after I was all styled and everything, she said she didn't like the grape color because it was like a washed out mahogany look and it was not good. It was too washed out in her eyes. And it did look like shit in mine too. So what does she do? leaves the room for a while and comes back with the color that she said would wash out in a couple days. Why I have no idea. So she starts putting this in and it is already one and a half hours passed our bowling time...so the family was having fun without us. She said that the purple needed to sit in for 15 minutes. I was fuming by then. Why did I waste so much time on this? 4 hours of a mistake! Nothing that I wanted! I seriously wanted to cry right then and there. But I kept it cool, as she walked over to wash the purple out. I told her I had no time to style it again. So we paid, and got the hell out of there. I even made Tiff drive my car, since I was so upset and trying to fix my hair. I needed to put makeup on too. Tiff heard me rant and rave the whole way to mtown about my hair...I was seriously going to punch someone. I never had such a bad turnout. I get to the rose bowl, and all my fam is there, even the very critical ones. I walk in the door and they all say they like it just to make my feel good. If made me feel worse. I seriously cried. I went to the bathroom to calm down. I thought to myself, "Why the hell am I crying over such stupid things?" But it just really bothered me. I hated my bangs, they seem so short. And why have purple if it won't last? I don't get it. But when I came out of the bathroom my fam really ment what they said. They really liked it. Even the ones I thought would make fun of me liked it. I still didn't like the fact that it didn't turn out the way I pictured it. I guess it will be something to get used to. I now have purple, and lets hope it lasts. I think I was also very upset about was not being at bowling with my mom on her bday. I wanted to be there, and I missed it because of my stupid hair. I think that was another reason for why I cried. I wanted to be there, and it's all my fault. I shouldn't have scheduled my hair for that day.......but I can't change things now...and I have to wait for my hair to grow out.

Good part: My family has been trying to plan a surprise party for my mother for about a week now, and the person that set all this up was my sister Jenna. And yes she is 11. I thought for sure that she would find out one way or another, but she never put 2 and 2 together. I took her for a walk in pitts with me, so that everyone could go and hide out in my house. The funny thing is is that Paul and Stac were there already and parked in the other garage. I was nervous that my mom would see them, so I texted them sayin to hide and close the garage door. She never noticed ahaha. As soon as we got back Betty's car was there and I told my mom that she wanted me to go along to a party that she was invited to, and that she came early to pick me up. She goes to the door and SURPRISE!!!!!! She was shocked...I never seen her so happy. She even started to cry....which made her hide behind the wall because she was just so happy. She even made me cry seeing her like that. It was deffinately a great feeling. She knew she was thought of. I loved just how she was glowing with happiness because everyone that she loved and is close to was there. It was great. We sang happy bday to her and paul since his is coming up. We played badmitton and my team won it. Terry and Rarron came to play games too. Mom was having fun playing Trivia for Dummies and MadGab. It was a great night with great food and great people. I truely enjoyed it.

I love you mom with all my heart!!! xxxooo

Rain is a Bitch

Rain, Rain, Go away!!!.....
I'm sick and tired of all this rain....brian niznansky said it would be over in the early afternoon....LIAR? But yea..went to Mtown...did alittle shoppy shoppy....and I actually didn't feel like shopping either, which is weird for me...I normally love it. Today was crap with all the rain and it being cold.

Mariah text me today to see what I was up to. Of course I was in town and thats where she wanted to go...typical...lol. I did tell her that I had an acking to bake, and for her to come over when I got home. She came as soon as I told her to. I said we should bake cupcakes...she said that would be great....but it ended up being me baking and her watching....just as I thought. She said her mom doesn't allow her to cook, since she is so bad..lol. The cupcakes turned out wonderful! YUM YUM!

Later on we watched a movie and a half...lol my mom was tired so we will finish it later. Tomorrow is my mom's BDAY!!!! We are goin bowling and out to eat....so excited and this is all after tiff and I get our hair done. Mine is gonna be dark brown with purple and Bleach blonde chunks...so excited!

Well I should go and lift weights like I keep telling myself....goal: lose up to 5 lbs and get tone for countryfest...fingers crossed....:)

Been Too Tired To Even Blog!

WELL......
First off I can't believe it's Monday already. Its so crazy....the weekend went by like a blurr. Friday I worked all day, went to see Night at the Museum 2...which was better than the first. Saturday I went to graduation...lets just say..YAWN...plus it rained which sucked. The rest of the day consisted of downloading over 100 songs, and went to Seth's (my future husband...according to Heather lol) party....I was there ALL day, but I did go to church like I should. The only thing that was productive Saturday night was that I out ate all the guys with 3 full plates of food...lol. I also made plans with Tiff, Alex, and Margo to watch the The Little Mermaid trilogy...yep you read that right. That's my FAVORITE movie! I haven't decided what night we will watch those because Alex said that we have to watch all 3 in one night. OH BOY! I'm excited! and Then came Sunday...Mom and I were all by our lonesome...so what do we do? GO SHOPPING! Appleton was calling our names...and yes I got some sweet things...1 pair of tennis, 1 pair awesome sandels, and I can't believe I'm saying this but I did find some shirts and a bag into Hollister. I think I went in there because I was just so emotionally drained from seeing Jimmy'z being shut down. Tears were forming (not really). After I got over the fact of my fav store closing, my mom and I decided we wanted some great Red Lobster...YUM! That night we got home very tired and decided to make popcorn and watch a movie, just the two of us...until Heather called. lol She was having a bonfire and I was needed to be there or else. And I deffinately don't want to make Heather upset. A pregnant lady has flying hormones....and Heather had those even before being pregnant..lol O I love Heather. I thought to myself too that if I stayed out late that I could sleep in on Memorial Day.....but no. I got up and went to lunch with my mom, gpa, uncle, and my big turd I call my cousin Tiff. Plus I had to work! I fed calves and milked....it wasn't bad at all....I can say it was a good day. O I forgot to say that I got to help with the birthing process on a cow. Boy I was soo excited about it. I really wanted to just jump right in and help right after my uncles told me that one of the cows just came fresh. It was actually hard work to pull the little guy out. Ha after awhile of pulling we hooked the hooves up to a crank system...which made to job a whole lot easier. My uncle said that the calf looked dead, but I was hopeing that the little guy was alive. Soon as it hit the floor, he was wide awake. I loved it...and I want to for sure do it again.
So I have been hearing about everyone going fishing......BUT ME! Does anyone know how upsetting this is??? I just invested in a fishing license for the 3rd year...this will be the year that I can see already, that there will be hardly any fishing. Someone told me that they were going to take me fishing if I had no one to go with....and that hasn't happened yet. Actually they haven't talked to me in a long time. Pretty sure this person is avoiding me, but whatever. Sorry I'm not going to bring this person's name into this. I don't want anyone to assume anything. But anyways.....My dad also said that he would take me fishing...PSHH...that will never happen. He is a big talker, plus he isn't a big fisherman. I want to go with someone that is fun, can talk with easily, and likes to be with me out fishing all day. I want to fish with someone that has a great understanding of fishing...and I know a person just like that, but who knows if that will ever happen....I really do miss fishing with this person. We were a great team either on boat or on shore....but now I just get upset when ppl start talking about fishing. Ha I have an uncle that loves to fish and is pretty good at it, but will he take me...not if my life depended on it. I don't even ask anymore, it gets me nowhere. I think I'm going to go to fleet farm, buy a shit ton of bait and repalas, and go fishing in my cousin's pond....I'm garaunteed a pan fish, which is a lot smaller then what I want to fish for, but it sure is better than nothing.

Gosh that's all I think about. All the things I can't do because I'm alone. Sure I can do stuff with the family, but it is always better when you have a partner there to push you to try new things or do fun stuff. I think about my cuz Tiff and how she has it good with Jake. They do so many things together, if its not basketball its tennis, and if not that then going to eat together. It's hard for me to be by myself, and it's also hard when you would like to do something with ppl and they are busy with say their boyfriends. I know I would probably be the same way, but it's hard for me right now because I'm single. I know that everyone says being single is a good thing and that it gives you a lot of "me" time, but I truely hate it. I really do. It is the worst feeling:alone. I guess that could mean that I'm not fully independent, but I'm also deffinately not dependent on ppl either. I love to take care of the person I'm with. Thats what makes me a happy person. I don't really understand why I am the way I am. Wow that sounds like I sure am whining about my life right now. lol Well I know for a fact, I sure will feel alone when I go to Countryfest this year...my cuz and her bf, and a couple they know, then it's me and stacy. Yeah me and Stacy. What a great couple we are...and I'm going to listen to all the sobby country music and all I'm gonna do is think of the person that got me into it....yeah fun time:(.....I'll get over it tho. One way or another.

Well I'm getting tired of blogging...I'm gonna go make myself some Nikes on nike.com. :)

WHY DOES GRASS HAVE TO GROW?

Seriously....mowing the yard is not my specialty, and I definitely don't like to do it EVER. It's one of those jobs that I want to hire someone else to do because of how long it takes my family to actually get all of it done. We have a pretty big yard with all kinds of trees and rock gardens, and such all over. It practically makes our yard an obstacle course. Usually I have to push mow around everything, but today I got to use the rider. Which was very nice.
This morning I woke up early to go for a walk. It was actually a nice breezy day. After the walk, My mom and I went to the Chiropractor (she does the massaging and rubbing technic, instead of the cracking and killing your back).

Tonight Carl had a bonfire. Not many people were there to talk to, plus I didn't no half of them anyways.....So I'm falling asleep as I'm writing......I'm going to stop.

Busy busy busy....

First off...I'm already tired.
but i can't get off here to save my life. I haven't been able to sleep in like I like to usually. My mom had to come in and wake me up to go for a walk with her at 9. Yea that doesn't sound that early, but for me that is precious time that I should be taking to sleep. But no, I had to get up and walk the dogs with my mom. When we got back it was so nice and quiet in the house without my sis and bro. AHAHAH school is calling them yet....too bad. I went shopping with my mom today and went to the ZA to eat. We pretty much went there just for Jonie, our favorite waitress. She is a doll.

Here is the exciting part of my day. Wait for it.....wait for it...I helped my mom load dirt into the gator, as she was shoveling it from the side of the house....fun fun...(catch the sarcasm). I did that in my swimsuit because I wanted to catch some rays....but I would have rather layed out for that....and my ending result=no sun=no suntan=really lame. It was flippin over 80 today...perfect for a tan. But did I get one....NO. Oh well, tomorrow is another day for it.
Later on tonight I went to my sis's softball game...they lost pretty bad. and it was a bit boring to watch all the little mistakes kids that age do. I give them all credit for playing tho. It finally ended and I got home to see the American Idol finale, I for sure thought that Adam would win, but the Kris won. I don't keep up with this stuff anyways, so I wasn't extra happy/sad.

And now I am here.....in my bed...all alone...haha...was talking to Chris about our lonely lives...yeah it sures makes me think about the past and the future and what it all holds for me.

Long ass Tuesdays

WORK......that is pretty much all I can say....I practically was at the farm the whole day sweeping, shoveling, moving hay, and milking. Went to eat at the cafe and I saw Rose and Dale Zawislan. They are such a nice couple, and Rose alone is seriously one of the nicest people I have met. She is just so friendly.
Came home and was outside for a bit. I was freakin hot out the whole day. Them liars on TV are getting to me. They said 62. It turned out to be 83. Jeez!
At the end of the night I went to Mariah's and talk/watch a movie. Then of course she got tired...which is my que to go home.

I'm so tired....too much work today!

JUST ANOTHER MANIC MONDAY....

URG...
Well I'm gonna try to leave this short because I'm a very tired person right at this minute and I have a very early work schedule for tomorrow....It sounds like a winner...YAY...wow way too much enthusiasm. But anyways, I got up to go to Mtown with my mom, while my bro and sis went to school...ha ha I don't feel one bit sad for them....PAHAH..but that's besides the point. Today was the day to get our bigillion groceries, and I mean a ton. We wait til we are all gone with everything in the house and nothing left to survive on. And that's when we go to get our groceries. This involves at least two carts full of groceries, and random people asking if we need the drive up help....we hate that more then anything. We also can't stand when workers ask why we need so much food. It's none of their damn business...just keep scanning will ya?!

I knew that we wouldn't be in town for very long because I had to get back and milk the ladies, and feed their babies. Wow didn't even mean to rhyme there and I just did. Ha.
Got back around 1:30 and left the house at around 2. Matt told me to bring my A-game. Ha what a joke...I'll bring what I want to bring. I thought the milking went faster today then normal, but we got done at the same time. I thought I had a great speed today and was never behind. It was a great day...I didn't get shit on or pissed on. I especially like that none of the cows lashed out at me with their hooves. There was one though that I thought would have kicked me right our the metal railing, but she calmed down.
My cousin was extra nice to me while working and that is usually nothing like him. Usually he lashes out at me calling me names and making fun of me. I think he was this way because of the situation of his co-ed softball team. He didn't ask me to play. I was so pissed, but I was happy that my mom kinda reamed him a new one. But whatever I'm over it now, and have let it go. I don't expect much out of him, especially for me. And being the nicest person I am, I went to his game and watched. I really wanted to boo him, but I just can't do that.

Later on at night, Mariah visited and stayed past her bedtime, which is like what? 9:00? ha ha
And now I should be too. I'll write more tomorrow (actually that is today since it is 2:00 in the morning).

Sunday Bloody Sunday

A LONG DAY OF NOTHING....
Today seemed to have a way of exhausting me without it really exhausting me. I went to church this morning like a good Catholic girl should, sat through a very long and repetitive homily, and listen to the many loud kids in church. Don't get me wrong, I love KIDS, it just distracted me that's all. After church ended my family and I went to go visit my grandma gravestone. If the people reading this don't really know me and whats going on in my life right now, my wonderful grandma just recently passed away. It is still a very hard thing to fathom that she is actually gone. I don't go without a nite thinking about her and how much I miss her. I was so close with her. We had sleepovers when my grandpa was gone, I could talk to her about everything, and also she was the BEST COOK that I have ever had.......and I mean BEST! She could stick her hand in the flour and all the ingredients and literally throw things together....and they would turn out fabulous. She was the best grandma anyone could have. I want to say this to anyone that is reading this.....spend as much time with your grandparents as possible.....life goes by way too fast and there will be a point in life that something will go wrong and you may lose the one you love. I am telling you this because I feel this way now. I regret now being there for my grandma all the time. I should have went to visit more then what I did. I feel so selfish now that it kills me to think about it now. But I have to stay strong and think of all the good times we did have.

Later on after church, my mom, sis, and I planted the garden. I'm getting so excited about all the veggies we are going to have...YUM! I am definitely a pea freak. They are so good straight out of the garden. After making the whole garden, I had some errands to run in Mtown. I strolled into Wally World....and does anyone else see this or is it all me? ......that everytime you go into the place, you are surrounded by CREEPY PEOPLE? I feel this all the time....I think that is why I don't like to go there. Everytime I leave I feel a need to take a shower....

There was also a old car cruise tonight that went around Pville and Dexterville Drivein. We drove the 1973 Dodge Challenger. It was pretty fun, but it just doesn't cut it when you sit passenger the whole time. I'm more of a driver. Ha I told my dad that I want to start drag racing, and I'm serious about it. I don't think that's going to happen any time soon. But he did say that I could take the car by myself next time. SURE....that's gonna happen.....I doubt it....

When we got home, I watched some good movies (My Best Friend's Wedding/Monster-in-Law) with my mom. I love spending time with her. She cracks me up.

And the finale, I'm in bed talking about my slightly boring day. I know that you thought it was. HA. But yeah, starting to milk tomorrow for the summer....I get to say HI to the ladies at 2 tomorrow, then might head down to the co-ed softy games. We will have to see tho.....To be honest summer has not hit me yet. I still have the urge to do homework and study for tests....thats pretty redic if you ask me. I do hope that tomorrow brings more interesting things then today....but good nite til then

KH

I'm devirginized from blogging!

TODAY IS THE DAY.....
that I start my own blog. I have been wanting to start this since I saw Steph's blog. So thanks to Steph, now is my time to write about whatever the hell I want. It's this great feeling of release when I get to write about things that I encounter and enjoy at the same time. It has been a very long and exhausting day. This morning I woke up early by some of my many friends at EC. It was our last day to spend together before our summers alone begin. I really was sad about all the goodbyes and seeing our dorms so vacant. I will also truly miss my RA Danielle. She was great! I know for a fact that when she graduates she will be the best nurse out there. She has such a caring and loving heart on her. I want to be just like her in the sense of being the best nurse possible.
Saying goodbye to Jessica, my favorite redhead in the whole wide world, was so hard. I feel that I have grown the closest to her. Kirsten and suzie were also very hard to say adios to. I will be making plenty of trips down to Appleton just to see those two and hang out.

When I finally decided to leave i stopped by an ole friends house to say a few things to get them off my chest. I really dont know why i did this. I guess I felt I needed to get my point across to him and say what I needed to say. Realizing after I had done this, there wasnt a need for me to have done that. He knew everything already, which is a surprise to me. But this is all besides the point...
I got home and decided to go and make myself miserable by driving with my great mom and aunt to watch my bro play in a bball tourney.....the weather.....cold + windy= SHIT. It took FOREVER! I tried sleeping through most of it, on the way home, and crashed later on the couch. I think that is why I'm so awake right now.
HAHA before I finish up I probably should say that our last night was the most random last night ever. It consisted of playing WHAT IF?, making our own music video to "Sex on the beach", and eating two 20 inch pizzas with bread sticks.....while cuddling up on our futons in the basement watching American Pie. What a great last night.......To all my great friends that I have met....Jessica, Kirsten, Suzie, Emily, Sam, MarCHa lol, Amy, Sammi, Alaina, Amberleigh, And all the great guys on first floor....especially justin...(.I will really miss our great Air Bud nights and our long random talks....you are a great friend), u all made such an impact on my life.....I know that I will see you all very soon and I know that next year will be an even bigger blast! looking forward to it all!!! Love you guys!!!!

I'm going to TRY to keep this up everyday, but i doubt that will happen with my very busy schedule.....I will try my darndest....