WELL......
First off I can't believe it's Monday already. Its so crazy....the weekend went by like a blurr. Friday I worked all day, went to see Night at the Museum 2...which was better than the first. Saturday I went to graduation...lets just say..YAWN...plus it rained which sucked. The rest of the day consisted of downloading over 100 songs, and went to Seth's (my future husband...according to Heather lol) party....I was there ALL day, but I did go to church like I should. The only thing that was productive Saturday night was that I out ate all the guys with 3 full plates of food...lol. I also made plans with Tiff, Alex, and Margo to watch the The Little Mermaid trilogy...yep you read that right. That's my FAVORITE movie! I haven't decided what night we will watch those because Alex said that we have to watch all 3 in one night. OH BOY! I'm excited! and Then came Sunday...Mom and I were all by our lonesome...so what do we do? GO SHOPPING! Appleton was calling our names...and yes I got some sweet things...1 pair of tennis, 1 pair awesome sandels, and I can't believe I'm saying this but I did find some shirts and a bag into Hollister. I think I went in there because I was just so emotionally drained from seeing Jimmy'z being shut down. Tears were forming (not really). After I got over the fact of my fav store closing, my mom and I decided we wanted some great Red Lobster...YUM! That night we got home very tired and decided to make popcorn and watch a movie, just the two of us...until Heather called. lol She was having a bonfire and I was needed to be there or else. And I deffinately don't want to make Heather upset. A pregnant lady has flying hormones....and Heather had those even before being pregnant..lol O I love Heather. I thought to myself too that if I stayed out late that I could sleep in on Memorial Day.....but no. I got up and went to lunch with my mom, gpa, uncle, and my big turd I call my cousin Tiff. Plus I had to work! I fed calves and milked....it wasn't bad at all....I can say it was a good day. O I forgot to say that I got to help with the birthing process on a cow. Boy I was soo excited about it. I really wanted to just jump right in and help right after my uncles told me that one of the cows just came fresh. It was actually hard work to pull the little guy out. Ha after awhile of pulling we hooked the hooves up to a crank system...which made to job a whole lot easier. My uncle said that the calf looked dead, but I was hopeing that the little guy was alive. Soon as it hit the floor, he was wide awake. I loved it...and I want to for sure do it again.
So I have been hearing about everyone going fishing......BUT ME! Does anyone know how upsetting this is??? I just invested in a fishing license for the 3rd year...this will be the year that I can see already, that there will be hardly any fishing. Someone told me that they were going to take me fishing if I had no one to go with....and that hasn't happened yet. Actually they haven't talked to me in a long time. Pretty sure this person is avoiding me, but whatever. Sorry I'm not going to bring this person's name into this. I don't want anyone to assume anything. But anyways.....My dad also said that he would take me fishing...PSHH...that will never happen. He is a big talker, plus he isn't a big fisherman. I want to go with someone that is fun, can talk with easily, and likes to be with me out fishing all day. I want to fish with someone that has a great understanding of fishing...and I know a person just like that, but who knows if that will ever happen....I really do miss fishing with this person. We were a great team either on boat or on shore....but now I just get upset when ppl start talking about fishing. Ha I have an uncle that loves to fish and is pretty good at it, but will he take me...not if my life depended on it. I don't even ask anymore, it gets me nowhere. I think I'm going to go to fleet farm, buy a shit ton of bait and repalas, and go fishing in my cousin's pond....I'm garaunteed a pan fish, which is a lot smaller then what I want to fish for, but it sure is better than nothing.
Gosh that's all I think about. All the things I can't do because I'm alone. Sure I can do stuff with the family, but it is always better when you have a partner there to push you to try new things or do fun stuff. I think about my cuz Tiff and how she has it good with Jake. They do so many things together, if its not basketball its tennis, and if not that then going to eat together. It's hard for me to be by myself, and it's also hard when you would like to do something with ppl and they are busy with say their boyfriends. I know I would probably be the same way, but it's hard for me right now because I'm single. I know that everyone says being single is a good thing and that it gives you a lot of "me" time, but I truely hate it. I really do. It is the worst feeling:alone. I guess that could mean that I'm not fully independent, but I'm also deffinately not dependent on ppl either. I love to take care of the person I'm with. Thats what makes me a happy person. I don't really understand why I am the way I am. Wow that sounds like I sure am whining about my life right now. lol Well I know for a fact, I sure will feel alone when I go to Countryfest this year...my cuz and her bf, and a couple they know, then it's me and stacy. Yeah me and Stacy. What a great couple we are...and I'm going to listen to all the sobby country music and all I'm gonna do is think of the person that got me into it....yeah fun time:(.....I'll get over it tho. One way or another.
Well I'm getting tired of blogging...I'm gonna go make myself some Nikes on nike.com. :)
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