SOOOO.....
I have been having such weird things happen to me lately. I just don't get all this. Is it like a sign or something? Besides all my messed up things in my life....it has been pretty good so far.
First off Friday, My friends were having a bonfire at 8. I knew that it was going to be fun, but I didn't know that I was going to get ganged up on about being single. I really felt uncomfortable about the whole situation. They kept on and on about how its a good thing for me. BLAH BLAH BLAH! I really have a whole different outlook on relationships then everyone else. They feel that you get tons of freedom ( and sure you do), BUT you don't have that one person there that you feel you can go to whenever and just to be with them, and to know that they love you. Sure they have found that person in their lives and now they get to talk to me about the single life. I know that one of them hasn't been single in a very long time...and I'm pretty sure she wouldn't like it either. Deffinatetly pick on me the single girl....thanks. Gosh I hate it. Plus it was awkward talking about this stuff in front of one of my friends of whom supposedly had a thing for me. Yeah awkward...
Well I guess I can't say that Saturday nite was any better. My friend is with her ex for the billionth time....and everytime that starts up again....who gets put on the backburner?? me. Yep when he wants something from her or just wants her around....she will drop everything in front of her to just go straight to him. Which is so true....so if she reads this.....she cannot say anything about what I wrote because it is all true. We were having a good time that night and all of a sudden she got a text saying he was coming over....and then all of a sudden she wanted to go home. What a coincedence.....this is not the first time this has happened to me.....nope....and you know what??? I should just leave this stuff all go and forget all that had happened....Why is it such a big deal to me??? BECAUSE.....I would NEVER do that to someone when I'm with them. But whatever...I shrug it all off all the time....because I think to myself....she just wants to be with the guy that calls her friend a "whore"....and I'm always there for her when she needs me because I'm a good friend like that. And I treat her good and we don't get into stupid fights like she does with her "manwhore" 24/7. I have said as such to her as I possibly could about how he is to her, but that goes in one ear and out the other. Ok, if you want to be fighting and miserable for the rest of your life with him, by all means you are on the right track. And you know what? I say this all because I care about her and her wellbeing. She needs to start thinking more about herself and less about a boy that is trying to control her life. Sorry I had to rant.
And then there was Sunday. I went to church. Then I did some tiling project for my mom....which was pretty fun I must say. I was outside the whole day...in a swimsuit....and I turned into a lobster....oh boy. It was so nice out tho I just couldn't help it. I also got a call from someone I didn't think would be calling me. He said that he just wanted to talk...and it was actually nice to hear his voice again. We made a plan to go this sunday fishing....I'm excited! I said I couldn't go Saturday because of Pat's grad party and my lovely rendevous with weiler to a wedding reception and a grad party after....lol we will see how this all goes. I later went to Brittany Gudan's bonfire...which was fun too! I got to meet tons of new people...so I was having a blast cooking mallows and hotdogs with Sam Hogue. I think I dominated at mallows...lol. Soon enough the rain came and I left.
Monday...hmmm...well I went to town this morning with my mother. Got a few things and stopped at the bee's to eat. That is where I saw the person that got in the way of everything in the past 2 yrs of my life (won't go into detail because it would take too long). Soon as I saw her...immediately I got a very bad stomachache. I get sick everytime I hear her name and see her anywhere. This stuff shouldn't bother me, but it still stings. O well, one day it will all disappear to the point that I could give 2 shits about it. 2o'clock rolled around pretty fast, which ment it was time to feed calves and milk...and we started chopping hay.....and I'm one of the haulers, so I did that also tonight. Got done at 7:45, got home, washed up, and went to Josh's coed softball game, where I saw people that I really didn't want to see. I'm upset because I really didn't do anything to get this kind of treatment from a person I was so close to at one point. But again....I'm gonna leave that go to.....goto forget about all that stuff.... go on with another day...which tomorrow is going to be long...and all work...:)
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